HEALER

"be faithful in small things

because it is in them - that your strength lies"

Mother Teresa



H E A L E R
  

 

it's an assumption


that fundamentally, we're all equal - embedded in the constitution
here in Canada especially - then there's "karma" 

then there's reality - the judgements - the walls of shame 
welcome to the fear factory - centuries of criminal behavior
 
conditionally condoned

adverse conditions creating chaos - abort alpha one charlie delta fox 

I'm going down - mayday - mayday - mayday
"requesting an emergency rescue evac - unknown co-ordinates 

on fire - crash and burn scenario subject seduction - with respect
just get your ass into the situation - now sir"

  I need a healer

"a man is but the product of his thoughts 
what he thinks, he becomes"

Mahatma Gandhi 

going down in flames
little chance of recovery
fading voices - shadowy shape shifters
downward spiral - blunt force - smoke - fire -
reverberation - condemnation into redemption

she lies next to me in silence - shields down - surrender 

darkened room - in port - docked - respite repair
only it's a haze - a dream - years ago with her
is this real

in our bedroom - early on

reaching over and touching my wounded shoulder during intimacy
when time stood still - before anything mattered - this
 a genuine gesture that feels good - caring
in war crimes - realizing time is short
in this moment - stillness

 
 

"you - are a healer", a simple acknowledgement 

spoken quietly in the presence of grace and humility
empathy - compassion - deliverance - she receives the message in form
no expectation - only loving, accepting resolve - nothing matters
only what is right here - right now ... you are everything
and you are nothing

"shhh - close your eyes now - sleep dear"

that caress along my receding hair line
that soft kiss on my cheek - drifting
into slumber  - ah
home 

"the wound ... is the place where the light enters you"

Rumi

no attachment - no shame - no pretension - no fallout - no "discussion"
no need to pretend and/or hide behind anything 
no cruel constructions  - no walls of blame - no borderlines

it's simple, I think - it's all about "listening" (not speaking)  

the truth ultimately unfolds in receiving information
taking it in gently

when she walks into a room  
my heart goes bing - bang - boom - "mommy"!
waking from a dream at 5am - heart pounding - so real OMG 

so right there - I could touch her - shivering shaking
I feel cold

we all are conditioned to give and take according to the plan
braised on high heat from the very beginning - barbecued chicken 

 deliciously sauced and served with a side of our choice 

 

for some it's religion - for others it's faith 

for others it's a simple good nights sleep
awakening into resolution and refreshment  
for me it's all of the above
I am thank-full - yes god - the affirmation
the adoration returning

thank you

H E A L E R




 

it doesn't matter who I am - or what I stand for

it's not about my conquests or my fears, regrets

accomplishments - mistakes
none of that

it's about my intention

in willingness to let go of everything
lose the baggage
ah

right here - right now

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