Wednesday, 22 June 2022

EDWARD STREET


Recovery.


What’s that?

You want me to … what?


Move?  ... but wait!  

This is where I’m supposed to be - stuck here.

So you want me to be what?  

Stuck somewhere else?


I was served an eviction notice

on November 01, 2021

In the place I moved into 18 years ago,

on April 01, 2004 in north High Park.


Ok, it’s been a shift, struggle.  Awakening … pushed
out and into this, but wait ... wow!

I just wish this had happened 10 years ago.








6 days into my new move to my hometown Woodstock from Toronto, 

this mid June 2022,

having moved to the big city at 23 in late 1979

(yes, 43 years). 


A brand new realization, revelation.


You see, here's the thing.

I’ve been living in a dark fog

twilight twirling, since 2008. 

I didn’t know that until yesterday morning;

waking up to fresh air & new birds after sleeping soundly

for the first time in years (w/o medication)

in Woodstock.


It's like waking up out on the family farm

Eastwood, 1964 (a few miles away) - summer

before chores, crickets, rooster.

Aunt Allie already up

I smell breakfast.


Good to be home.





EDWARD STREET














Clarity for the first time in a long while.

Walking out into the kitchen

then my chaotic living room

(still unpacking/boxes).


Holy shit - it's clear again.

Words can't describe it



I LOVE this place





Edward Street - from the album Night Parachuting
© 1991 Spiral Sky Music, Toronto























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Friday, 3 June 2022

FINDING GLORIA





ODE TO TORONTO
time to go home

and so

It is a fond farewell
to the city I moved to right out of college
when I was 21 - no clue
just a baby






Toronto was where if anything really interesting
was going to happen (in an accompanying orbit),
this is where it would be
a promise fulfilled

Toronto shaped me into who I am
1979 - 2022
43 years

I got married here, had a daughter here
I immersed myself and I loved it

time to go home and reflect
bare essentials

this video has really nothing to do w/anything
it's just the period at the end of a sentence.




F I N D I N G  G L O R I A 
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optimized for night vision


a jim lamarche remix
from the album ONE LIFE
assembled in photoshop, logic audio and final cut

featuring the Roland System 8


source music w/seán tucker-clemens
ben & anita tatlow


landscape visual photography courtesy of 
ambient
















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Friday, 27 May 2022

DOG FIGHT




you don't have time to think up there
you think?  ... you're dead

Captain Pete 'Maverick' Mitchell
Top Gun: Maverick
 


D O G  F I G H T
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optimized for night vision


a jim lamarche remix
from the album ONE LIFE
assembled in photoshop, logic audio and final cut

featuring the Roland System 8


source music w/amadeusz malkowski
feat: kyrah aylin















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Wednesday, 25 May 2022

THE FREEDOM FARCE



“The problem with the world is that the intelligent people are full of doubts,

while the stupid ones are full of confidence."


Charles Bukowski








Fascinating to me ... there are some people you meet

who you feel immediately comfortable around, and others

who are terrifying. What's up with that?


When I was in Grade 7 at Centennial Central School in Comber Ontario (1968), we had a class uprising/revolt. Our new teacher (Mr. Kennedy) was young; just out of teacher’s college and he was weak.

 

We discovered early on that we could control him (if we stuck together) and one rainy early afternoon that late spring, turned the classroom into a party, tying him up to his chair, blindfolding & gagging him and spent the rest of the school day partying, listening to music, dancing and creating chaos/destroying the classroom. It was a blast! It was also the most important lesson I learned in all of grade school AND it wasn't in the curriculum. No. Real world.


The reason for our revolt was a simple one … too many rules & not enough freedom.  


Just a small flaw with our plan. We had the same conditions as the rest of the school did. Yes, rules & restrictions, decided by grown ups who supposedly had more wisdom/maturity than we did.  It was no different than any other public school in Canada, only we had a rare opening … and we used it.  


What I find most interesting (in retrospect), is that the school must have known what was going on (from the noise, loud music in the classroom), but did nothing to stop it. 


Mmmmn ok. Echoes. That familiar - out of sight, out of mind.









Truth is, we were a pack of unruly brats who seized the moment to create mayhem BECAUSE WE COULD!  Collectively, we saw an opportunity where we could get away with confusion, and we took it.  Fundamentally it had nothing to do with ‘freedom’ per sé, because we knew that the rules were universal (not just confined to us).  I mean, it’s not like we were being treated unfairly really; it’s just that we thought it would be cool if we finally stood up for something that was actually ours (not theirs). 


Ok, we were old enough to understand that law & order were basic cornerstones of every civilized community wishing to remain productive, functional & organized and that even our parents & teachers had to obey the law & follow the rules too. Fuck that!  No, this was a one off rebellion shared by 13 year olds wishing to make a point FOR FUN! 


The freedom angle was just an excuse, a reason to push back against authority. Sounds almost legitimate right?  It was a momentary awakening in that if enough of us young teenagers got together (all over the world), we could change everything and that for once, they would be answering to US!  An event beyond what any of us could imagine; bliss in anarchy in overcoming the powers that be which also meant PUNISHMENT to every man, woman & child who opposed us.

  

Payback? You bet!  Being told to wear our boots outside after a winter snowstorm, or - or no Playstation until after the homework is done?  How about no dessert until we finish all our supper?  NO MORE!  I'll wear my running shoes outside after it snows, play video games instead of going to school - hell, I'll eat dessert FOR supper every day if I want!  You can't tell me what to do anymore because you don't matter!


Ah, adolescence. What I would give, to be a kid again ... 









and so ...

Welcome to the freedom farce.


Fast forward 50 years and what I’m seeing recently sure feels a whole lot like that Grade 7 uprising in Comber only it’s everywhere.  In comes a President who acts like an entitled man-child and those following him, look & act just the same, encouraging a hundred million followers to do just that … revolt.  Why?  Freedom!  Only it's not against our teachers, principals, parents or the police ... no, it's the elite progressives (Democrats, Liberal Socialist whiners who think they're better than us). 


Righteous entitlement flexes its muscles just like it did in 1968 in Comber Ontario, only it’s a whole lot bigger & meaner.  It really is all the same stuff only it’s every public school across the country.  


Same argument … we won’t live by your rules anymore. In closing, mark my words. There will be more freedom marches, convoys, and protests not that unlike what we just saw in Ottawa.  It was a so-called revolt against vaccine passports (so they say). I say LIE!  It had little or even nothing to do with that. An excuse to tie up the teacher and throw a smash bash is what I'm thinking.  Let's turn our Prime Minister into a clown, make a lot of noise, deface monuments and spray paint graffiti on the sidewalks of our nation's capitol is what this is really about. A fuck you partay!









Epilogue:

We never saw Mr. Kennedy after that day. Either he quit or was let go (I'm thinking the latter).  We had a substitute teacher for the last 2 months of that school year.  That day is indelibly stamped in my psyche to this day, just like it was 53 years ago …  and ‘freedom’ (now, just like it was then), is just a feeble excuse to set fire to the barn.




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Monday, 23 May 2022

WONDERING OF YOU



entitlement
 the assumption that one has a right to something
 that others don't ... hint, whispering

 it's why we kill each other
it's who we are 




w o n d e r i n g   o f   y o u
a  m e s s a g e  t o  t h e  m a r t i a n s



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you can control your children 
through threats and punishments 
and they will learn to fear

or you can love and guide 
without controlling or interfering 
and they will learn to trust themselves


William Martin - The Parent's Tao Te Ching



a jim lamarche remix


composed and performed by jim lamarche & chris dempster
assembled in logic audio and final cut

















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Tuesday, 17 May 2022

RUSSIA VS. THE WORLD



Ukraine is the teenage girl who wants to leave home and join a rock band because her boyfriend is the guitar player.




R U S S I A  V S  T H E  W O R L D


 


Ok, someone help me out here.  There’s a war in Ukraine and I just don’t get it.  They’ve been flirting w/NATO (essentially the U.S.) for a decade by slowly/quietly importing U.S. sympathizers & financiers running the show now (lovers sneaking through the bedroom window when parents are asleep & crawling into bed with their little girl); wanting to be part of ‘the west’ (promises of money, jewels & gold) and the Motherland (USSR/Russia) is saying no (foot down)!  How is that fair?  Better question?  Maybe it’s none of our business OR is it?  Ah, poor Ukraine needs our help. Sounds suspect to me. 


Sounds more like the U.S. would like to set up shop (missile launch sites pointed at Moscow) right in Russia's back yard, while raiding the pantry (billions in resources there). Is it any wonder Mother Russia is pissed?  It's just common sense.











Ukraine is the teenage girl who wants to leave home and join a rock band because her boyfriend is the guitar player.  Parents need to let go at some point yes?  Question is … what are they holding on to?  Answer: that little piece of the world/them, that they can still call, theirs.  Even better, why are we even there?  Why are we interfering?  


So whatever. Ukraine saying they’ll become neutral if the motherland backs off BUT, US/NATO continuing to supply them w/state of the art war toys?  Sorry but WTF??  What do you really think is going to happen here?  Oh right.  Once Putin takes Ukraine, then he’ll want all the Baltics then maybe ‘world domination’ like Hitler wanted? Just STFU! 


NEWSFLASH: dictators are abundant here too, only they wear $10K suits and sit in board rooms (benefitting from 'legally' tricking you while convincing you that the bad guy? ... is over there - pointing), so just don't give me that but ... but horse shit.  What’s most disturbing?  We are on the brink of WW3 only this time nuclear! Freedom you say? You are being fooled (hook, line & sinker)!  This pandemic winding down?  Multiply that nightmare by 1000!  All their fault tho right?


Worth it? Yes. To a select few (and their hundreds of millions of devoted followers), convinced that their interests are protected by their patriotic virtue, freedom fighter fortitude. Dictators all look & sound different and they're everywhere (not just Russia). Our dictators are just a whole lot less obvious but equally deceptive & cunning.  I am left with one overwhelming sentiment here ...


Leave them alone!  It’s none of our frikkin' business FFS.  They were in Cuba in ’62 (our back yard) and it pissed us off and we threatened them w/nuclear and they left!  They don’t get to feel the same now?  If nothing else?  Hypocrisy is abundant in the west and the Military Industrial Complex remains hungry. Money & power rules. It's a trillion dollar investment. Regular exercise is required.  We don't own them. Let Ukraine remain neutral, oh and NATO?  Get the fuck OUT of there!

in closing:


Throwing rocks at a hornet’s nest can only go bad.  Our future is in the hands of a few dozen men who want & need to break them & take what they think is theirs. It was never yours ... doesn't belong to you.


Let it Be. (Mic drop)


















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