OLD SOUL

“The soul is born old but grows young.” — Oscar Wilde

I’ve met some amazing people from a multitude of nationalities. My favourites are East Indian/South Asians, particularly from the northern Punjab region. There’s a sense of humility that’s in their old souls. It can’t be described accurately and everyone I meet and talk to from the Punjab exudes empathy and generosity.

A childlike innocence that embraces life regardless of the obstacles - an all knowing sense of self randomly drifting in the turbulence. Contentment.

It’s passed on as well. Younger Punjabi Indians born here have the same shimmer, an unexplained aura, temperament and ok - good karma. Mischievous and unpredictable.

Humanity is too vast/complex to even pretend to know what’s going to happen here. I mean it’s a crazy spin or roll of the dice that lands a certain way and we just deal with it. The one thing that remains consistent is our troubling times. I'm thinking this … we got through it before; we’ll do it again. I have faith even though I’m not religious. Faith embodies everything, transcending the limitations of religion. Salvation? Sure. Bring it on. Purgatory? If we must. 

Life is difficult. We humans are cruel. It’s just here and there; it's what we do. 

The Welcoming

In a recent poll, it was determined that around half of Canadian Conservatives would have voted for Trump too and that floored me. Roughly two thirds of us right now are Conservatives so 1/3 of Canadians overall approve of him. That said, we as a country are standing on the same precipice they were just a few short months ago, ready to jump like they just did. I was under the impression that almost all of us despised Trump's arrogant psychopathy but nope. We welcome it! The Lemming Theory comes to mind. It's a 'how could it possibly be any worse' or 'what have we got to lose' mindset having absolutely no idea that the answers to these questions are unthinkable. 

Our complacency is relentless. Oh he's just kidding. That could never happen here. We wallow in mind numbing complicity while perilous provocateurs sow seeds of autocracy and all in the name of freedom. A crime of the century con carried out in broad daylight with those doing the stealing smiling and waving at us while we wave back in awe and admiration.

Our old souls are not amused.

The Imposition & The Reaction

Rage baiting resentment politics, casting that reaction vote is so very much in fashion, in pursuit of justice - empowering entitlement and appeasing anxiety (wishful thinking). That impending threat of being swallowed up by progressive socialist elitists forcing their insipid ideology on those of us just needing to be left alone (or so we would like to believe). 

No. It's the friction, tension and anger that is very much part of the allure. We have been inundated with the idea that hate actually feels good even though it's something most would never admit to. It's a covert agenda shared enthusiastically amongst like minded cohorts who love painful pleasures. Inflicting scorn - eating popcorn.

Imposing Black Lives Matters, LGBTQ/carbon tax, vaccination nonsense on us like rules we’re just supposed to follow now? Time to take a stand. Bring it home (to Daddy). Short term gain, long term pain but hey - it’s what’s necessary to maintain some sense of tradition.

Old souls are detached, wise and gracious. Generally quiet, understated. Always listening and relaxed yet alert. They don’t say much but when they do it’s like a bright light in a dark tunnel, illuminating truth and accepting any challenge presented. No affiliations, no allegiances - no puritan pride. Neutral ...

Responsible. Kind.

Epilogue: 

This imposition of authority is erroneous. Old souls remain detached, knowing this. We're born, we live our lives then we die ... every one of us. The ongoing need to be dominant only hurts.

Any old soul will tell you that those pretending to be all knowing are those who know nothing and that politicians pretending to be 'for the people' care little about the people, only about what they can get from them. In these treacherous times one needn't look very far to make these discoveries.

Hey Canada. The apple doesn't fall very far from the tree. Time to strap in and drop like a stone.

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AN AMERICAN AUTOPSY

Written on Wednesday Nov. 20, 2024 after an extended locker-room chat with a friend at the Southside Aquatic Centre (Woodstock) who is a moderate Conservative and who believes that a Trump presidency will be a good thing for America.

GULLIBLE - easily persuaded to believe something; credulous. 

PERSUASION - in a belief or set of beliefs, especially religious or political ones.

Nighty Night

There is a growing movement that subscribes to a serene sarcasm. A beautiful blend; bold with a crisp, satisfying finish. Safe/secure. Reaction & resentment appears to be on the menu so let’s do one of each. Let’s bring it home shall we? Complacency is a pleasant valley Sunday sermon. Later - looking soulfully into your loved one’s eyes on a romantic night out (that you’re paying for), wondering if she really loves you or is just after your money. 

Time shift. Ah, if only we could go back. NEWSFLASH: WE CAN!

It’s warm, cozy and familiar. It’s that fairy tale we were told as kids by our Moms after our bath, in bed after dark with our flannel daffy duck pyjamas on hugging Teddy. It’s mommy giving me a hug goodnight, while a tipsy Dad yells at her from the kitchen, waiting for his late supper. It is what’s REAL. What I remember; long for. It’s what’s here now. Now back again. 

Praise be.

Reaction vs. Proaction

Denial is so easy. I mean he IS just Daddy; harmless really. Poor man. I don't care about you, I just want your vote - “oh he’s just kidding/joking” or “he’s not being serious”. “He’s a businessman, it’s how he negotiates” and on and on, justifying the jargon, punctuating the platitudes. Ok but what about Project 2025 (asking)?  Strained glare ... “He has denied that, fake news”. But it’s his manifesto, drawn up by all his closest people. Long pause. “There’s no proof he had anything to do with that”. Right. Have you read it? “No. I don’t need to”. 

Awareness and humility is woke speak for weakness and I’m not weak. Black Lives, Me Too, Taking the Knee? Shove it. Transgendered should NOT be in MY vocabulary (because I am TOLD it should be). You’re either a man or a woman. Period. End of discussion.

This anti-system sentiment is a wonderful distraction and why not? I’d rather bury my head in the sand than look at what’s obvious … that we are being conned? No it’s YOU that’s being conned! There are REACTIVE and PROACTIVE Populists. Bernie Sanders is an example of the latter. Not about HIM but a greater good for all. Trump/Poilievre & most others are examples of the former; all about them ... their electorate? Pawns. Their critics? Enemies. Lock them up.

Far more potent and way more dangerous.

Epilogue: Larger than Life

Is humanity committing suicide? My suggestion earlier on and the jury is seriously OUT on that one. Maybe our American autopsy is just another episode on Springer. Like nothing matters anymore so destroy it. Only it’s way more entertaining. I’ve always wanted to be a rock star. Jesus. Hurts so good. This is actually what it feels like, because when you get right down to it

... being larger than life is way better than life itself.

for Brian

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IN THE GRACE OF GILEAD

For some people, becoming larger than life becomes paramount. 
Sociopathic narcissism has no nationality; no boundaries.

 Insecure? Na. Just confident.

music video remixes below/bottom
DYSTOPIAN 2125
DEAD END

The Massive Sceptre

It's all about the show. You know that kid in school … class clown. Trickster, grandstander. 

Maybe the schoolyard bully who ended up playing lead guitar in the local metal band before becoming Mayor. No wait. The good looking quiet one in the back of the class who becomes a multi-millionaire real estate mogul at 26, marries a trophy wife/high school sweetheart (Playboy bunny), has 3 kids and divorces her at 40, dumping her for someone younger, prettier, hotter - packin’ a massive sceptre and a proper pre-nup. Dude. Always out to prove something. Broad strokes on an empty canvas aching for retribution. Art of the deal. 

Boner. I mean bonus.

Thelma & Louise

Donald Trump is in good company as he embarks on his second term as President of the United States. I guess America would rather vote for a felon poser misogynist than a black woman. I mean … come the fuck on! Let’s get REAL! Freedom for ME, no freedom for you.

So what we have here is Trump 2.0. You know, the new and improved version. The one where capitalism becomes unhinged and looks a whole lot more like Russia’s oligarchy than a democracy. The one where humility becomes weakness and everyone is vulnerable. All part of Putin’s plan when he juxtaposed himself into America’s election the first time around. 

Now? 2024? Bullseye. In this new world order, there are winners and there are losers.
You decide. Oh wait, that decision is no longer yours to make. Oh well. Maybe next time.
Oh wait, maybe there won't BE a next time. America's electorate (fuelled by a Russian President and multiple billionaire infused super PACS) has collectively driven us off a cliff and into grave uncertainty and it is a Canadian author saying 'I told you so', 40 years later. 

 

In or Out

Look, this dichotomy is insane, surreal ... heartbreaking. Comatose camaraderie with a side order of inbred inebriation. Trailer park TV, late morning.  She's filing her nails while they're dragging the lake. Realizing she's almost out of smokes with a call to have them added to her beer delivery. Boyfriend having left for another 12 hour shift at the plant and a rain-soaked TRUMP - TAKE AMERICA BACK sign now partially tipped over on their non existent lawn a week after the election. Texting a girlfriend to see if she wants to party tonight. It's a mood thing ...

I’m in the final chapter of my life - so it seems fitting, that I just unload (not a whole lot to lose at this point). I am so grateful to have been born in 1956 in Canada! The '60s, '70s, '80s & '90s were spectacular decades to be alive. By 2000 the party was winding down and it started expiring heavily. 9/11 officially knocked the wind out of my sails. By 2016 it becomes downright tragic - so ya let’s spill. What’s unfolding/at stake here is a long list - so WARNING: If you don’t really want to get bummed out right now? Don’t read any further. Distract yourself accordingly. It’s a synopsis based on perception. No holds barred. A now or never kind of deal. You’re either in or out.

Ah, you’re in. So let’s do this …

1. MIGRATION/DEPORTATION - ICE on steroids - militarized, as Trump’s new GESTAPO. Official police of the nation (remember Germany 1943? Ok you’ve seen the movies). Feds over-riding state, county and urban jurisdictions. An ALL -IN kind of deal. Local cop? Go home. Families separated, parents sent away whatever. Refugees, legal immigrants? Doesn’t matter. Mass deportations. Incarceration camps. An invigorated crematorium industry silently sewn. End of birth right citizenship. Ban Muslims from entering the country and those here now? 

Get the hell out or face the consequences.

 

2. ECONOMY - It is said that inflation in an out of control economy was the backbone of Trump's campaign and that moderate middle class Americans caved to an 'anti-system' sentiment out of fear and mistrust of the current system. I mean what do we really have to lose by tearing it all down and building it back again right? How can it get any worse and what exactly will he DO? Doesn't matter. Worth a try and Trump is our man. Hints? Oh ya ... dark clouds on the horizon? The term 'out of the frying pan and into the fire' comes to mind.

Ok, let's start with tariffs. Let’s PUNISH Americans first (by making it all WAY more expensive), then China, Mexico and Canada for intruding on us. Trade? Don't make me laugh. Newsflash: Globalism is yesterday's news. Nationalism is today's. Protecting U.S. interests (translation: billionaire campaign donors heavily invested in a MAGA U.S.) coming first obviously! 

Lower & middle classes will just have to deal with it - you get out what you put IN. Oh BTW, thanks for your vote - now FUCK OFF! Using public, taxpayer money for private religious & ideologically aligned vocational schools. Additional tax breaks for corporations and the top 5%. Trillions syphoned at the expense of those who voted for this crime of the century con and all out in the open, mid-day (smiling & waving). Elimination of unions and worker protections. 

Raising the price of medications so as to benefit big pharmaceutical donors. Taxes up for those lower in the food chain, taxes down for those higher up.

 

3. ENVIRONMENT/REGULATIONS - Abandoning all initiatives. EPA, FDA, NOAAA designed to protect the public from crony capitalism’s extreme exploitation. The Paris Climate Accord and global climate incentives in 2017 abandoned by America then, now again. Let's put the final nail in that coffin shall we? It's a short term GAIN long term PAIN manifesto, racing down a dusty back road towards the Grand Canyon in a green 1966 Ford Thunderbird convertible.
We’ll deal w/it as it comes. Just adapt. Future generations? Whatever. Objections? Bring it.

Canada’s earnest carbon tax was a good idea, then. Now? Irrelevant. Big business and big oil will prosper. Green energy initiatives all on the chopping block. Canada, now ruled by Pierre Poilievre will fall into line and our resources will be up for grabs in a new willingness to comply and be rewarded as such. Ontario's Premier Doug Ford will be re-elected and his original plan to sell off the Green Belt will now become a reality with wealthy Americans benefitting the most from the new deal, Canada's affluent real estate players a distant second. A minority of Ontarians upset, a majority complacent. Indifferent. Numb.

 

4. FOREIGN RELATIONS - Turbulence/uncertainty. Arms escalation - more fingers on the LAUNCH codes. A military industrial complex working overtime. Ukraine, Palestine, Middle East becoming a more unstable powder-keg with a shorter fuse. Russia, China, North Korea aligning. WW3 becoming a very real possibility. Especially now. Restraint? None to be had. Ukraine eventually folding into Russia, NATO deteriorating and Israel becoming emboldened with increased support by the U.S., Britain and Europe collectively shaking their heads in wonder of what will happen to them. Hair trigger defence mechanisms proliferate.

Prediction: Trump will hand Ukraine over to Putin like a burnt burger on a plastic platter.

5. DOMESTICS - Here it comes. A national abortion ban? Not quite yet but watch out. Give it a year or two. Trump has stated he will continue to let states decide BUT rogue blue states not complying to a MAGA ideology will be hung out to dry on such issues including transfers, FEMA and grants. The hundreds of billions of federal aid dollars shared amongst states now every year will become more selective, favouring Republican states; excluding/punishing others.

Blue states will hang on for a year or two before caving to demands. More Republicans installed replacing Democrat judges nationally state by state before abortion rights become non existent everywhere. Black Lives Matter, LGBTQ, Muslims and minority groups going dark in fear. Civil rights, DEI protections, existing regulations and no fault divorce will end and women will automatically be blamed with no rights or compensation. Existing lunch programs in schools will be eliminated. Domestic violence, hunger and child poverty skyrocketing.

 

6. SOCIAL SECURITY - The existing social safety net will slowly disintegrate. Medicare will eventually be phased out. Healthcare will radically change with more exclusions and those who qualify will only get access if they have money or are insured. A new wave of privatization sweeping across America and Canada after a Conservative majority government is elected north of the border. The Retirement age will be raised and old age pensions reduced. 

Canadian healthcare will go from a single payer model (used in Scandinavian countries) to a 2 tier model with insurance/user pay covering half (incidental surgeries and tests).

7. LAW ENFORCEMENT - Federal and state run police will usurp local authorities. Supreme Court Justices now entirely appointed by the President for the sole purpose of serving him and his agenda. Trump's felonies once initiated by the Department of Justice will be expunged permanently and proponents of such initiatives will be fired, then jailed. Law and government will be joined at the federal level first, then the state second. Municipal policing will triple in size out of necessity. Confined to domestic disputes, increased crime and local order.

Capital punishment will be reintroduced nationally and America’s booming prison industry will expand ten-fold. Military confrontations with protestors will become commonplace with draconian measures being implemented to ensure 'safety' for America's citizens.

8. MEDIA - Fox News will become the official propaganda network for the country with others following or being shut down. Rogue podcasts, blogs, YouTube channels and what’s left of television or on-line alternatives will be weeded out and heavily censored or removed by a new Department of Communication controlled entirely by the office of the President. 

FBI and Homeland Security will be defunded and a new Department of Corrections will be introduced. Dissidents and protestors will be targeted/profiled, rooted out and either deported, imprisoned or quietly executed.

Epilogue: The Pendulum

Is there any coming back from this? Honestly, I'm thinking this blog may last 6 months to a year before it is taken down with a large percentage of my content purged/removed from my YouTube channel and Blogger. Free speech will be supported for those who comply, restricted for those who don't. Freedom and free speech will become selective, favouring those continuing subscribers to the MAGA doctrine, even in Canada. Those resisting will be silenced.

Now, all that said, it is quite conceivable that the next 4 years will pass and in 2028 there will be another election that changes everything yet again. It's a serious stretch but hey, anything is possible. I would like to leave this on a positive note. Humanity has prevailed before and can prevail again. It is said that there's this pendulum swinging left, then right - then back again, over decades driven by inertia; reversing course by our intrinsic need for change. It's really now a question if we will be allowed to initiate that change. Maybe. Maybe not.

This could be a final stretch for the swing right and it could be a final conclusion for democracy, universal critical thinking in life & liberty. Optimism is usually a good thing. 

We thought it could never happen again after the last one, especially here ...
and here we are.

power is in tearing human minds to pieces 

and putting them together again 

in new shapes of your own choosing

George Orwell

IN THE GRACE OF GILEAD

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dictators generally, don't get along

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WINDOW MEMORIAL

Till Death Do Us Part - an end of life predicament

in a remembrance of that which should have been done differently

Situation on the Ground

Life is difficult - now this? A recent trip to the doctor after tests where he tells you have cancer and it’s terminal. How long? Months, maybe a year. You’ve been tired for a long time, realizing something wasn’t right, thus the tests. Approaching 70 and it’s been a good run. Thinking, maybe it’s time to check out soon. Curing it doesn’t even enter the mind in a numbing sense of aloneness never felt before. 

Returning 3 days later for the obligatory ‘follow up’.

Of course your doctor has a ‘plan’ - you know, this agenda that doctors have … earnestly suggesting that with the right ’treatment’ there’s a chance that your life can be saved. Yay! With a couple of rounds of chemo and maybe some radiation, the cancer (now stage 4) might, just might go into remission. He is 'highly recommending' it quietly knowing there's a very slim chance of success but the script was already prepared (arrangements made) so. Worst case scenario is that you’ll get another 4-6 months of additional torture, I mean LIFE; the treatment slowing down the spread. Wow! Sounds great; I mean … that’s good news right?

A reason to feel just that little bit better. Smile.

All we ever wanted was to be relevant. Wanting our lives to mean something - sharing it with someone who loves us - having children … good job, nice home/car - a comfortable life. Ok scoring pretty good on most counts and getting that it would be nice to go out quietly; with dignity without pain. I mean, if death is inevitable and I’m old, it only makes sense that it should be as easy as possible right? 

Wrong. 

Loved ones are torn. “You’ve got to FIGHT this” is the common response. Like fighting it is going to fix it. All very entertaining and all very predictable. The world has a plan - that you’ll live regardless of what happens (and you really don’t have a say). The stress, the expectations and all the knee-jerk reactions just make it way worse. Suddenly this is not about my life but more about everyone else's.

The Rear View

The end of life is a mishmash of religious dogma suggesting that our lives ultimately belong to some higher power, medical chivalry with endless codes and procedures; strict rules & prescriptions on how our prognosis should be dealt with. What is probably the most disturbing, is the ongoing desperation that we humans ruthlessly maintain - to squeeze just one more day out of life regardless of how difficult it is. You OWE yourself that! What? Really?? It’s a universal narrative made up by those in charge; most of whom have never really had any experience with death themselves but since they know better, we just need to comply. Doctors, lawyers, clergymen/priests and esp. family really need you to stretch this out as long as humanly possible (even if it kills you). Why? Because that’s what we do!

Ok, when do I start the chemo? Well, scheduling delays and a backlog. We’ll ’try’ to get you started the first round in 3 weeks. Right. I have stage 4 cancer with months to live and they’re going to start my chemo in 3 weeks? That should be the first hint that this is all a very bad idea BUT it’s the ONLY chance of survival and EVERYBODY is insisting I try so … ok. ‘If you say so’.

For Thine is the Kingdom

Ten weeks later, results of the first round of chemotherapy come in and it’s not good news. Hair has fallen out and this stupid oxygen tube in my face 24/7. Too weak to even think about going out and lugging the tank around behind me. Can’t eat, sleep or shower/bath, having lost 30 pounds BUT maybe, just maybe we’ll get it on the second round of chemo and some radiation therapy for dessert. You CAN do this!  

Developments in Medical Assistance in Dying (MAID) have come a long way in the last 10 years. Imagine drinking 2 small cups of liquid, laying back and falling asleep, deeper & deeper & deeper until your heart stops 10 minutes later. Jesus. That actually sounds pretty damn favourable right about now. Thinking it’s time to investigate that. Well no. Your Doctor telling you that a formal application can’t be submitted until all treatments are over and with chemo round 2 starting tomorrow, a MAID app is NOT an option for at least 10 more weeks now. Then there’s a 4 week exploratory period followed by a 6-8 week waiting period. 

The incremental agony - all there to support a system that has no idea what's really going on and all because 'hanging on for dear life' is how we roll. How it's always been done. For thine is the kingdom, the power and the glory, forever and ever ... amen.

Epilogue

It should be noted that many cancers are caught early enough that modern medical treatments work, eradicating the metastasis and even bringing about full remission, leaving those originally diagnosed free to live long, productive lives after. That said, being diagnosed w/stage 4 cancer at 70 is a time to think independently, knowing it’s only going to prolong the pain and suffering by seeking treatment for something that is too late to treat. Saying no thank you is always an option. An easier earlier departure is often best (even though it is never suggested or recommended).

Despite the clamouring for control, the kicking, screaming, clutching and resistance from all those who think they know what’s best for you, everyone facing elimination should have the right (and support) to shut it all down in minutes (no waiting, delays or excuses). Like shutting a light switch off. 

Over and out.

for Pansy Edith Batho (Pat Miller)

April 16, 1932 - July 29, 2004

https://www.ontario.ca/page/medical-assistance-dying-and-end-life-decisions

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STAND BY YOUR MAN

girls get a raw deal

 it's a mans world

"get over it"

S T A N D  B Y  Y O U R  M A N

  

that's what I told my daughter today

sitting at the bar eating brunch - while she works
at "Insomnia" on Bloor in Toronto - how appropriate

having slept little - she's a soldier
always tired - why?

through the hardware of a bustling crowd
all the modern devices on display

a mixture of truly cosmopolitan men and women
an all so perfect, multi-cultural blend 
obviously very awake and yet, all so pre-occupied

pretending to be normal
appropriate music at just the right volume
this food and drink - good - life is good

looking forward at her in between bites
softening for a moment
in between her ongoing recoil - driven by her craft
staying - on course
it hurts still

she's such a warrior princess

thinking - I was blessed

she's "rising to the occasion" nonetheless

it's a default position - in an ugly tangle

she's grieving the passing of a relationship

and a man who hurt her - her boyfriend of almost a year

that's what I told her - so called "fatherly advice"

shitty deal girl - get with the program

get over it

(from Dad's mouth to mine)

girls are poisoned coming in

at a young age - and I'm part of that

bombarded by weapons of mass construction

victims of our ancestral karma 

all so meticulously choreographed by men

seeds that are planted in misinformation - incubation - masturbation

into numbness - in a routine mission that fails - yet again
 abort - "next" ...

ok, there are always the fruits from a good harvest

and that simple sermon delivered by a good male soul

at Sunday mass - all in good faith 

but it's never enough

women are programmed to give and take

in a pre-meditated ritual

that deceives and destroys

the spirit is compromised and the water becomes contaminated

all part of gods plan?  I'm questioning that tonight

and so dear friends

welcome back to my mishap in the making

 an ongoing exercise in redemption
delivered with hope and optimism

and yet with caution

S T A N D  B Y  Y O U R  M A N

Bonnie and Clyde

it started early - from the banishment of Hildegard Von Bingen

from the church - for writing words
and making music - for speaking up 

to a lost and alone Anne Frank in Amsterdam during WW2
just wondering what is going on here?
the insanity that surrounds the world - what's this?

it surfaces in crimes of passion and broken promises

what happened Daddy?  why does this hurt so much?
why are you so mean?

get over it

self esteem erodes

deviant distractions are devised

in a concocted contingency contagion
bravely bred - in a silent science

returning to our secret place 

a counter-measure that we didn't want to exercise
but have to now ... out of necessity

it continues

the holocaust was just a beginning

in the feminine decomposition - the decay smells rotten - oh btw ...

"do you think i'm pretty?"

rate me on a scale from 1 - 10
on the internet


rate my face

Anne Frank in Amsterdam - 1942

hijabs in high heels - hot
i love Square One - shopping mall - Mississauga
high tension hypocrisy
on any given day

international ramifications
in a history of violence
enough said

ok, it's all about the presentation

it's not about who you are

no, it's not about what you bring to the table

it's not about your feelings, desires or your fears

it's not about your beliefs or your ambitions

none of that

no my dear ... it's all about your faith

in a modern masculine modality that you have invested in
 your destiny - the circus show
 that we are all so entertained by in the media

by the displacement of power, repression and perception
the pasteurized poison
served up clean
and "neat"

in our given - inherited hypocrisy 
embedded in our religion and our philosophy
just "shut - the fuck - up"

just get over it

 you are nothing

you are only worth something ...

if you become something - in my image

and only if you present yourself accordingly

there are rules in place

follow them my dear, and you will be rewarded

break the rules? - and you will be punished

that's how it works

bend over ... you're going to like this

Karla Homolka and Paul Bernardo

just do as I say and it will be ok

i know you want it - i know you want to be ah ... loved

so just  - do this

get the girl

"then after you're finished?  we need a hammer
and garbage bags - Home Depot - for the wreckage
you're part of this now"

just do as you're told

 and it will all be ok - trust me

girls are afraid - and so they should be!

of being cast aside by Daddy - yep - how it works

and Mommy who follows Daddy 

because she's told to

punishment hurts

none of us wants that - and yet, here we go again

it's just another night 
in relapse

get me off

Tori Stafford, Michael Rafferty and Terri-Lynn Mclintic

 

just lure her into the car

after school

I want her young - and pretty - 
na, you don't have it in you

to actually do this - to bring me what I want

you don't have the guts

so just do it - bring me what I want
or you don't get that special surprise that I promised you

this happened in my hometown - Woodstock

in 2009 - I lived there as a kid

clueless

Tori was raped and murdered
by a ruptured couple

for those who have little girls

just love them

tell them that they are special and that they are loved

hold them like they are our only hope

for a better world and a better future

for our girls


he doesn't love you - the same way
that you love him

S T A N D  B Y  Y O U R  M A N





"sometimes its hard to be a woman
giving all your love to just one man"

dedicated to Tori Stafford - 2001 - 2009

Woodstock Ontario