Tuesday 14 April 2020


girls get a raw deal

 it's a mans world
"get over it"

S T A N D  B Y  Y O U R  M A N


that's what I told my daughter today
sitting at the bar eating brunch - while she works
at "Insomnia" on Bloor in Toronto - how appropriate
having slept little - she's a soldier
always tired - why?

through the hardware of a bustling crowd
all the modern devices on display
a mixture of truly cosmopolitan men and women
an all so perfect, multi-cultural blend 
obviously very awake and yet, all so pre-occupied
pretending to be normal
appropriate music at just the right volume
this food and drink - good - life is good

looking forward at her in between bites
softening for a moment
in between her ongoing recoil - driven by her craft
staying - on course
it hurts still

she's such a warrior princess
thinking - I was blessed
she's "rising to the occasion" nonetheless

it's a default position - in an ugly tangle
she's grieving the passing of a relationship
and a man who hurt her - her boyfriend of almost a year

that's what I told her - so called "fatherly advice"
shitty deal girl - get with the program

get over it
(from Dad's mouth to mine)

girls are poisoned coming in
at a young age - and I'm part of that

bombarded by weapons of mass construction
victims of our ancestral karma 
all so meticulously choreographed by men
seeds that are planted in misinformation - incubation - masturbation
into numbness - in a routine mission that fails - yet again
 abort - "next" ...

ok, there are always the fruits from a good harvest
and that simple sermon delivered by a good male soul
at Sunday mass - all in good faith 
but it's never enough

women are programmed to give and take
in a pre-meditated ritual
that deceives and destroys

the spirit is compromised and the water becomes contaminated
all part of gods plan?  I'm questioning that tonight

and so dear friends
welcome back to my mishap in the making
 an ongoing exercise in redemption
delivered with hope and optimism

and yet with caution

S T A N D  B Y  Y O U R  M A N

Bonnie and Clyde

it started early - from the banishment of Hildegard Von Bingen
from the church - for writing words
and making music - for speaking up 
to a lost and alone Anne Frank in Amsterdam during WW2
just wondering what is going on here?
the insanity that surrounds the world - what's this?

it surfaces in crimes of passion and broken promises
what happened Daddy?  why does this hurt so much?
why are you so mean?

get over it

self esteem erodes
deviant distractions are devised
in a concocted contingency contagion
bravely bred - in a silent science

returning to our secret place 
a counter-measure that we didn't want to exercise
but have to now ... out of necessity

it continues

the holocaust was just a beginning
in the feminine decomposition - the decay smells rotten - oh btw ...

"do you think i'm pretty?"
rate me on a scale from 1 - 10
on the internet

rate my face

Anne Frank in Amsterdam - 1942

hijabs in high heels - hot
i love Square One - shopping mall - Mississauga
high tension hypocrisy
on any given day

international ramifications
in a history of violence
enough said

ok, it's all about the presentation
it's not about who you are
no, it's not about what you bring to the table
it's not about your feelings, desires or your fears
it's not about your beliefs or your ambitions

none of that

no my dear ... it's all about your faith
in a modern masculine modality that you have invested in
 your destiny - the circus show
 that we are all so entertained by in the media
by the displacement of power, repression and perception
the pasteurized poison
served up clean
and "neat"

in our given - inherited hypocrisy 
embedded in our religion and our philosophy
just "shut - the fuck - up"

just get over it

 you are nothing

you are only worth something ...
if you become something - in my image
and only if you present yourself accordingly

there are rules in place
follow them my dear, and you will be rewarded
break the rules? - and you will be punished
that's how it works

bend over ... you're going to like this

Karla Homolka and Paul Bernardo

just do as I say and it will be ok
i know you want it - i know you want to be ah ... loved
so just  - do this

get the girl

"then after you're finished?  we need a hammer
and garbage bags - Home Depot - for the wreckage
you're part of this now"

just do as you're told

 and it will all be ok - trust me

girls are afraid - and so they should be!
of being cast aside by Daddy - yep - how it works
and Mommy who follows Daddy 
because she's told to

punishment hurts
none of us wants that - and yet, here we go again
it's just another night 
in relapse

get me off

Tori Stafford, Michael Rafferty and Terri-Lynn Mclintic

just lure her into the car
after school

I want her young - and pretty - 
na, you don't have it in you
to actually do this - to bring me what I want
you don't have the guts

so just do it - bring me what I want
or you don't get that special surprise that I promised you

this happened in my hometown - Woodstock
in 2009 - I lived there as a kid

Tori was raped and murdered
by a ruptured couple

for those who have little girls
just love them

tell them that they are special and that they are loved

hold them like they are our only hope
for a better world and a better future

for our girls

he doesn't love you - the same way
that you love him

S T A N D  B Y  Y O U R  M A N

"sometimes its hard to be a woman
giving all your love to just one man"

dedicated to Tori Stafford - 2001 - 2009
Woodstock Ontario

Tuesday 7 April 2020


the end of a story
a soft kiss on the forehead
"go to sleep now"

one must never be afraid of the babushka
for she is kind

and quiet

B A B A  Y A G A
volume up

optimized for night vision

a jim lamarche remix
from the album TWO LIVES
assembled in photoshop, logic audio & final cut

feat. sheila livingston
featuring the roland system 8

moscow aerial
hаша работа о mоскве, которая собрала более 2,5 миллионов просмотров на YouTube за год

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listen to the youtube album ONE LIFE  >>>  HERE
(play all)

Friday 3 April 2020


the lion is most handsome
when looking for food


S H O W  M E  L O V E
volume up

from the album TWO LIVES
assembled in photoshop, logic audio & final cut

featuring the roland system 8

read more of Jim's blog posts here 

see the new TWO LIVES album/page here >>>

see the new THREE LIVES album/page here >>>

see the TEMPLE REDUX album/page here >>>

listen to the youtube album ONE LIFE  >>>  HERE
(play all)


self reflection is both harrowing and enlightening
 especially when we are forced into it
regardless of what's unfolding 
and how grim it looks?
there's always that pondering thought  
what good can come of this?  
who will we be on the flip side?  different? 

(wishful thinking)

A viral lockdown releases one such reckoning ... an opportunity to look under that rock and see what's been lurking there all along.  Just what's buried in the back of this closet anyway?  Dad's bulb hasn't been replaced in decades and 'wow, what's this?'  All humanity's twisted experiments revealed and all without really having to do anything, except watch. Yes, there is a silver lining.  It shines a spotlight.  It puts humanity's strengths and weaknesses under a microscope and forces us to look - at what's real.  All this stuff he didn't want us to see.

Lockdown - day 19.  April 3, 2020.  I'm gazing into my computer screen like it's a portal into the universe - at all the planets, stars, galaxies and then closer ... at all our space junk scattered in our pious proximity, momentarily blocking the view ... the thousands of large used metal things orbiting the earth - no longer functional.  Who put them there?  Why?  Who benefitted?   What will happen to them?  What will happen to us? 

Contemplating our continuation is a daunting task.  It also requires keeping our eyes wide open and our spirits high.  So this silver lining ... right.  Cottonelle - 3 ply.

the reckoning

A most recent signal is that there is an environmental recovery unfolding.  Who would have thought?  Just staying still for a few weeks and the healing begins - silver lining.  Gas is 63 cents a litre.  No problem with that.  A redundancy in fossil fuel consumption is upon us - a silver lining.  Barely an interest rate on mortgages and loans.  Banks finally saying 'alright already - time to stop taking'.  We surrender.  Like everyone needs to - stand down.

A re-evaluation of the social safety net that supports and protects us; recalibrating our response time and resetting our default settings - a silver lining.  Out with the old complicity and in with a new contingency.  It's only beginning (so they say) and we're out of respirators?  Up until now there was no profit in the preparation.  Scrambling to catch up in our reformed recalcitrance - a silver lining.  Collateral damage yes, but that's the price of progress - yes?  

It's in the news.  There's an abandoned hospital in Philadelphia w/500 beds that stays empty because the owner of the property wants a million a month for it.  Remaining hospitals at capacity and this guy is holding out; dwindling supplies.  The trolls remain.  Plastics and paper products - aerosol sprays and EZ pain relief.  Easy and convenient.  
Just flush and forget.

the resolve

Jesus!  I finally found toilet paper yesterday (a month later).  Are we really that scared, that greedy?  The tide is shifting; a new awakening.  The plan is morphing from out to in then back out again.  We're growing up out of necessity and all because a microscopic organism just decided to walk onto the world stage one day and say, "wakey wakey - eggs and bacey".  

Now they're saying the fallout could last years.  Fuck me.  No swims - no life.  I dream of cool water on hot sunny days.  This silver lining ... I get to dream.  It's all so temporary.

Survival instincts.  Who would have thought?  I'm so thankful to still be alive and I am so grateful to be shown such seriousness.  The time to ponder and the time to express.  I love my life!  Yes, there is a silver lining.  It shines a spotlight.  It puts our strengths and weaknesses under a microscope and it shows us - what's real. 

wishful thinking - ah right ... been there - done that.
sweet dreams