Saturday, 14 July 2018

THE SUICIDE COLLECTIVE - fear n loathing house sessions VOL 1




It’s a ‘what you don’t know won’t hurt you’ game plan
with a good dose of shame and blame 
in a recycled modus operandi
and all designed to
   
divide and conquer 










1986 (Windsor Ontario)

My Dad would have loved Trump.  Stoic, stubborn - ‘knows everything’ kinda guy w/a touch of torment, hatred of women and a penchant for payback.  Sound familiar?  The BIG man who wears an expensive suit, drives a BIG car and has a hot trophy wife (ok, you get it).  I mean ok (story is), he got right royally fucked over and so now they need to suffer (yawn) … listening still.  It’s frikkin’ brutal.  Rambling about street blacks in Detroit getting what they deserve, (intoxicated).  Pause.  The silence is deafening.  "So Dad, just how is it that they deserve being dominated and oppressed"?  That look of death. That was it.  It didn’t matter.  I learned about the term "bleeding heart liberal" that day, and then there was no room for discussion (on anything anymore).  


I was 30 and hadn’t seen him in years.  Sad.  You see here’s the deal … he feels the world owes HIM something because he was left behind - abandoned, when in fact he blew it and abandoned himself (emotionally/spiritually) long ago, and so it was inevitable.  We had grown apart and his will to live was being compromised.  In disrepair.  He didn’t care (never did).  

My way or the highway.  The one thing I've learned is that 'forcing' change almost always backfires (counter-productive) and that all the money and military might in the world ultimately doesn't make one man (or any one people) any more powerful (or relevant) over another.  Ok maybe in the short term.  We’re here for an instant then gone anyway.  What does it matter?  POOF, in a flash and up in smoke we go, six feet under - all over. Here today, gone tomorrow.  More-so now than ever ... compassion, common sense, the ability to reason and critical thinking have all been eclipsed by something much larger … entitlement.  

What’s real/the truth is no longer important because everything you see is fake news anyway, so fuck it.  IF we all blow up to smithereens?  At least I will have had the opportunity to make my point.  It's all about the collective.  It's about what's right.








That said, it’s really not that obvious especially to those who don’t want to know.  Right wing thinkers blame us ‘snowflakes’ for stirring up shit and blaming them only they invented the rules, especially in this latest round of debauchery, all reinvented and endorsed by celebrity, fame and fortune (ah, the American Dream) and all in that familiar adrenalin rush that comes after hearing the words … “you’re fired”.  All the problems in the world? … always someone else’s fault.  It's magic. The term ‘zero accountability’ comes to mind.  That said; it’s imperative that we all take a good long look in the mirror from time to time and ask ourselves the most important question … ‘so what’s my part in all of this anyway’? Otherwise we’re just sticking our head in the sand just like they are.  


Fundamentally we all just want to be heard (and loved); so yeah, we have more in common then we would like to admit.  That said, there’s a whole lot of reaction/resentment at the slightest hint of adversity/disagreement (a redundant rigidity if you will) and the rules of debate conveniently shift in favour of the righteous, where moving backwards makes way more sense than moving forward and 'collateral damage'?  Just comes with the territory.  








Justice is justified, especially in the eyes of God.  Immigrants? Don’t get me started.  Ok for one, they have a different God (a fake one).  Millennials are a problem because they are so spoiled and like us lefties have gotten away with way too much and expect too many handouts (wanting more than they/we deserve).   Adding insult to injury, is that we libtards think all humans should be treated equally.  I mean what kind of absolute total bullshit is that?  Thinking that all humans can get along just isn’t realistic so yeah, NATO needs to beef it up or shut up, because it’s all too obvious that shit’s going to hit the fan sooner or later and (once again), we Americans are going to be stuck cleaning up YOUR mess.  So yeah, we need more guns to protect ourselves because that fucker across the street looks like trouble and if you can’t see that then you are trouble too!  Just get with the program!

I have an opinion.  You have an opinion.  No one's opinion is more important than another.

If it isn't obvious what's really going on here by now, then I feel sorry for humanity.  Ok, for those who need help seeing what’s real here, one needs to agree to open their eyes and actually look.  Putin (creatively/brilliantly) created Trump in his image (shadow) and now Trump is willingly planting the seeds of distraction destruction in any ideology that supports the democratic process and undermines pure power (a convenient co-incidence?  I think not.) He is single-handedly dismantling a benevolent global consortium (ie. globalism/trade) by instilling the same fear and doubt he’s been using all along, and it’s working.  








And so, a new President (and most powerful man in the world) has turned the world into an episode of Jerry Springer;  you know the one where 2 women tear each other to shreds while the crowd cheers on “Jerry, Jerry, Jerry” all laughing and loving the shit-show!   Short term gain, long term pain.  Whatever … doesn’t matter.  What’s important here is that I get what I need (and you don’t).  That’s what I mean by entitlement.  

Childish actually.  It's like the kid next door wanting to play with your toy (even though you're not) but you don't let him (because it's yours).  Snickering when extending your leg just enough to trip the class idiot walking by in the cafeteria, his lunch tray crashing to the floor. Hilarious.  It’s about doing whatever it takes to maintain our elevation because omnipotence is the name of the game now and if you don’t learn to play along, then you’re not in the game.  

I’m troubled by all this and yet I’m optimistic.  History has taught me that greed and narcissism is (generally) short-lived and when it gets right down to push & shove vs. humility, humans deliver regardless of what side of the fence you’re on; looking at the big picture.  If someone else is in trouble, our first instinct is to help them regardless of the circumstances and that most of what’s going on is just an act, designed to attract attention.  This is what needs to be remembered first and foremost, what we have in common (what we share). 

That's what makes me not a Liberal or Conservative thinker, but a human being.








They say that 9/10 attempted suicides are just ‘a cry for attention’ (cry for help) and maybe that’s what all this is about.  In the end?  We always figure it out.  In the meantime, it’s all the theatrics that bother me most because they hurt unnecessarily.  Maybe, they just want to be loved more.  I mean, who doesn't want more?  I want more and so do you.




THE SUICIDE COLLECTIVE




a jim lamarche remix
Gateway House Sessions/18
assembled in logic audio and final cut








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Friday, 13 July 2018

RISK MANAGEMENT


risk comes from not knowing
what you're doing

warren buffett




R I S K  M A N A G E M E N T








a jim lamarche remix
Gateway House Sessions/18
assembled in logic audio and final cut
















Saturday, 30 June 2018

FEAR N LOATHING


There's always a middle-ground
a place where we can live in peace together
agree on basics

It's just whether or not I want to go there
because maybe you violate my principles
because it's you.  You is the reason
we have a frikkin' problem here




F E A R  N  L O A T H I N G










a jim lamarche remix
Fear N Loathing House Sessions/18
assembled in logic audio and final cut


Monday, 25 June 2018

WHAT HAPPENED?


there’s a whisper in the silence 
it’s coming from up there … the word ‘abandon’ comes to mind
through that door - then ascending  

only I’ve been here before 
I danced, then I forgot
tell me


WHAT HAPPENED ?









a jim lamarche remix
Gateway House Sessions/18
assembled in logic audio and final cut











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Friday, 22 June 2018

WONDERING OF YOU



entitlement
 the assumption that one has a right to something
 that others don't ... hint, whispering

 it's why we kill each other 




w o n d e r i n g   o f   y o u
 














you can control your children 
through threats and punishments 
and they will learn to fear

or you can love and guide 
without controlling or interfering 
and they will learn to trust themselves


William Martin - The Parent's Tao Te Ching



composed and performed by jim lamarche & chris dempster
assembled in logic audio and final cut















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Thursday, 21 June 2018

CHINATOWN



colourful ribbons
follow her movements
I can almost see floating rainbows
pale beauties unfurl in ivory hued fans
I imagine ... swan wings fluttering


C H I N A T O W N




























composed & performed by Jim Lamarche
recorded and mixed at Spiral Studio
58 Phoebe St. Toronto 
in April 1987

burning man 2016 aerial dance
featuring Stephanie Haber

photographed by Jim Vanderhorst


http://www.jimlamarche.ca/music/
 




唐人街









Wednesday, 20 June 2018

THE BIG ONE


you know how sometimes you tell yourself
that you have a choice, but really you don't?
just because there are alternatives
doesn't necessarily mean
they apply to you


T H E   B I G   O N E











a jim lamarche remix

Gateway House Sessions/18
assembled in logic audio and final cut