that fundamentally, we're all equal - embedded in the constitution here in Canada especially - then there's "karma"
then there's reality - the judgements - the walls of shame welcome to the fear factory - centuries of criminal behavior
conditionally condoned adverse conditions creating chaos - abort alpha one charlie delta fox
I'm going down - mayday - mayday - mayday "requesting an emergency rescue evac - unknown co-ordinates
on fire - crash and burn scenario subject seduction - with respect just get your ass into the situation - now sir" I need a healer
"a man is but the product of his thoughts what he thinks, he becomes"
Mahatma Gandhi
going down in flames little chance of recovery fading voices - shadowy shape shifters downward spiral - blunt force - smoke - fire - reverberation - condemnation into redemption
she lies next to me in silence - shields down - surrender
darkened room - in port - docked - respite repair only it's a haze - a dream - years ago with her is this real in our bedroom - early on reaching over and touching my wounded shoulder during intimacy when time stood still - before anything mattered - this a genuine gesture that feels good - caring in war crimes - realizing time is short in this moment - stillness
"you - are a healer", a simple acknowledgement
spoken quietly in the presence of grace and humility empathy - compassion - deliverance - she receives the message in form no expectation - only loving, accepting resolve - nothing matters only what is right here - right now ... you are everything and you are nothing "shhh - close your eyes now - sleep dear" that caress along my receding hair line that soft kiss on my cheek - drifting into slumber - ah home
"the wound ... is the place where the light enters you"
Rumi
no attachment - no shame - no pretension - no fallout - no "discussion" no need to pretend and/or hide behind anything no cruel constructions - no walls of blame - no borderlines
it's simple, I think - it's all about "listening" (not speaking)
the truth ultimately unfolds in receiving information taking it in gently
when she walks into a room my heart goes bing - bang - boom - "mommy"! waking from a dream at 5am - heart pounding - so real OMG
so right there - I could touch her - shivering shaking I feel cold
we all are conditioned to give and take according to the plan braised on high heat from the very beginning - barbecued chicken
deliciously sauced and served with a side of our choice
for some it's religion - for others it's faith
for others it's a simple good nights sleep awakening into resolution and refreshment for me it's all of the above I am thank-full - yes god - the affirmation the adoration returning thank you
H E A L E R
it doesn't matter who I am - or what I stand for
it's not about my conquests or my fears, regrets
accomplishments - mistakes none of that
it's about my intention
in willingness to let go of everything lose the baggage ah