nature's WAY

there's a chill in the air

we live in the confines of our environment

it's a beautiful sunny day in mexico in the winter

for a couple of north american campers on vacation

all inclusive - all elusive

tanning in paradise
lotsa booze

oK, amazing sex

crisis? what crisis?
boner service is excellent, thank you
my wife is rotting in zimbobwe
enough said

this girl is my "assistant"
yep - hot - it's how i roll now

nature's WAY

meanwhile

next door, there's a typhoon in the philippines

people getting swept under the muck

bacteria levels - through the roof

death is a routine delivery there
mommy daddy gone

it's a broadcast voice on TV
eating KFC ... WTF ... OMFG

"i was just sitting there
playing with my barbie

when the water came in

and flushed us down
the toilet"

an unfortunate stain
on this imported satin

granted, ok - winters in Toronto can be brutal

sometimes we get 20cm of frikkin snow

on the ground - under our manicured toes

and the roads get slippery - and shit flies

people get mean - short tempered

and it gets messy

i hate winter

i mean ok - we struggle

dinner is ruined

some are more resiliant than others

in matters of the spirit

some take it better

i mean oK

we can fight the elements OR

we can surrender and succumb

moving on - detached

redemption

no contest

we FIGHT - Spartacus conquers
you piece of fucking shit

we fight - our favourite sport

masturbation - we fight

ah great release

we fight

for our right to hold on to resentment

for our opportunity to exercise revenge

i dream of it every night because

i hold onto daddy - only daddy is

gone forever

alone again - naturally

i've locked old wounds into flimsy lockers

in the back of my fermenting psyche

buried deep in my limbic

promising to keep

them - secret

i mean - shit

it's embarrassing - and i'd really prefer

to forget about it

only i can't - it's a haunting shadow

that follows me around

the remnants of shame and regret

i'm what - a breach baby
just shut - the fuck up and make it happen
i'm royalty you insipid cunt

king . warrior . magician . lover

door number 3 please
with 100 on the bonus round
and the trip for 2 to los vegas
and the show-girl blowjob
coming complimentary

spin - the wheel
(audience clapping)

i still hold anger because my parents were fakes

dad way more than mom - at least she cared
reaching for her - gone - ah shit - oK she

loved me - distracted tho, like dad
narcissism extended - dysfunction
incalcitrant calculation
failing

it's still amazing to me

as to how some

can remain humble
humility is indeed in short supply

you my friend, are a sage
carrying and dispersing your wisdom
where-ever you go - you grow

and i love you

walking in the grass with a stick
impervious to natures way
scarred too - and yet
you remain true
on course

you remind me of what i can still do

i can still make a difference in this world
i can be alive and celebrate life
i can circumnavigate
and plan it

i used to be beautiful you know
i still can be

just takes a little eyeshadow
and blush