american selfie

sweet dreams are made of these

this is just going to take a minute

you're intense and need a stabilizer  

a tranquilizer, a maximizer

just a little bump

to keep you

on toppa

tings 



a m e r i c a n   s e l f i e



that friendly - feminine voice - the voice of comfort 

relax - ok just shut
the f*ck up and listen

ok, your finances are low

and your blood pressure is high

we can fix all that

whispering - shhhh

 ok, we've developed this little cocktail

just for you and you're just right for the trial run

good news - i've just talked to my manager 
congratulations!  you're IN

yes - you qualify!

just be patient - ok not just yet

if you believe in the prescription transcription

it's new, improved and approved

you're doing just fine

relax

oh right, your insurance may not cover this

do you have a back-up plan 
a contingency - i mean

credit card perhaps


who am i to disagree

there you go - are we feeling better yet
oh more - you want more - no
that's not how this works

who do i work for ?
not important

i get angry sometimes
assholes - all of them

no worries - i got it all in check

it's all about the reassurance
i've been recruited
by the best

trust me, it's all i ask

it's all going to be

ok

rage/rape management comes with membership
and i'm an employee - yep big perks
ok like, you - can be just like
ME


travel the world - and the seven seas


we've got this all under control
OMG like - i got this phone 
and can take pictures
of myself in like - high def
and post them on-line
with my friends

i can even have "friends"
that i don't even really have
how frikkin cool
is that


?

everybody's looking for something


so ok, enough about you - let's talk about
ME

i gotta story to tell and gosh darnit
i'm gonna get this out there

the american dream can be real
you just have to believe
this is a slam-dunk
scenerio


some of them want to use you


just follow along and remain calm
it's all i ask

your paralysis progress report will be available
on-line in just a few short weeks
- at www.youareofficiallyfucked.com - 
oh and your membership comes with 24/7 tech support

just sign in with your username
credit card number 
and password

we got you covered - you're beautiful
you're going to be
ok



a m e r i c a n   s e l f i e
  


until then

just relax, strapped in
put on your high fidelity ear-buds
and drift into your familiar slumber
oh you like the "Beebs"
get the f*ck out

!

yes, you too can be a "belieber"
hey kids - just plug and play

medication is not that bad really
once you get used to it


some of them want to be 
used by you


it's like taking that little trip back home
and into that comfort carnival
that you've become 
accustomed to
only better

because we have this way
of making the pain go away
while you still maintain 
your 3 squares a day

hey mom - STOP EATING!

oh right, did i mention - there's a disclaimer
nothing important really
it's just this contract you need to sign
ok, right - right here 
on the dotted line

this is something you're deciding to do yes
it's not something that we can ultimately
be responsible for


i'm gonna use you
abuse you


 no worries - all ok, just relax - just surrender to the process
you're worth it - remember that we're looking out for you
we're on top of things

no worries

 


a m e r i c a n   s e l f i e




sweet dreams
are made of these

you're not alone - no, not just yet - but hey
there's a movie coming out soon - top shelf
and you my friend 

are in it

 

nebraska

it's a flat land - flat people - it's grey a lot
people drink to forget

ok yes, my trajectory is uncertain 
but at least - there's this
rusty remnant

it's my take on this wonderful film
having just watched it - inspired
it started further south
in a quiet place
years ago 



n e b r a s k a 

ok, Pointe Aux Roches Ontario
same difference - displaced unemployed
 french canadians living in shacks on welfare cheques
why here

?


orange buses take kids to school an hour away in Comber 
shooting mushy spit-balls in the rear seats through gutted bic pens
and it's always cold - even in summer
there's a train that rolls through 
every day, but never stops

mostly american owned summer cottages 
on southern Lake Saint Clair - remote
older local kids (a kilometer away)
have pellet guns and sling-shots
that can take out a cat's eye
from a hundred feet, hell
even mini-bikes and 
ski-doos!

i'm not allowed to hang out with them (but do anyway)
ah, ok - not a whole lot to do here
7 years - in purgatory 

alone

  

CKLW-AM radio (Windsor) to ease the pain
only because they play motown (and Grand Funk Railroad)
Dad and step-mom like it too
sometimes - but not always 
defaulting to Eddy Arnold
on the record player
in lit zone

Mom and step-dad have no idea
where we even are
far away

welcome to my life in 1968
on a shallow brown lake that looked a lot
like the broken sky

there's a dog turd in Doug and Wayne Poole's bedroom 
smells bad - flies/bugs - impervious
it's been there for a few days/crusty surface
their dad comes home drunk every night - smacks their mom around
Laura Poole just sits at the kitchen table smoking cigarettes all day
and waits for him.  showing myself out
before the shit-show begins



n e b r a s k a

alright

everyone has a thorn in their side 
and a cut on their head 

it's about missing teeth
and false expectations
my childhood 

dad's fucked up again - sheeeit 
helping him get up - to the couch
"go to sleep - gonna be ok
in the mornin' "

it's a place that i'm most familiar with

too much time and not enough inspiration

i'm thinkin' 

maybe not your movie but mine

a film i just saw

amazing 

highly recommended
ok, long story.  let's just say 
that i loved my music
at the time 

succinctly capturing the essence of my childhood

in Stoney Point Ontario with my younger brother  

flat-lands/grey-scales in black and white

a prudent production maneuver 
regardless

i'm just a bit confused at the moment

why is life so difficult anyway

?

just a question

just a tad curious, like you possibly are too
in front of a mid-afternoon fuzzy TV that gets 3 stations on a good day   

"thinkin' it's time for another round of beers Martha"

n e b r a s k a
 

thinking tonight 

it's all in the outlook

assessing and resolving

life is what you make it, yes?

heard that somewhere

before too

and regardless of the setbacks?

i'm much preferring to look onwards and upwards

i'm betting that you share that
with me 



dedicated to Glen James LaMarche
(1925 - 2002) 



(you could play the clip and re-read this whilst - recommended) 

King Warrior Magician Lover

archetypal
masculine shadow systems

connected to real life/pop culture

is revealing - even entertaining

Carl Jung was way ahead of his time 
still is

ok, look at "the Governor" 
in the TV series/books, "The Walking Dead"

deeply mysterious 
he envelopes all aspects of the masculine psyche 
in searing detail
in and out of the light

in and out of the shadows




King Warrior Magician Lover
 

yes, that character, Brian Blake (aka Governor) makes the series pertinent
because he is relevant

 just a man, human 

complex and most tactile, almost accessible
triggering all the feminine hormones 
because he's so beautiful to look at 
and just far enough out of reach

fighting a common cause

and yet disturbed

things happen

when we're faced with a life or death scenerio
surrounded by zombies who want
to eat us for breakfast
making us one too

i'm fascinated
by this 

"walkers" - "biters" - "adversaries"

doesn't matter

these paradox's, allegories, juxtapositions
and childhood fables measure up
there's a bitter cold wind swirling
outside - and i miss you 
Daddy

good and evil
come delivered on multiple platforms/formats
let's just say that desperate measures
are sometimes required and

it brings out the best and worst in us

either way 

have another cognac
my friend

there is much to discuss

Brian Blake is beautiful for that very reason

because he's real - the driven antagonist

deeply moved in his quest for absolution

and yet utterly lost

disconnected 

embracing all aspects in all 4 quadrants

in real time - and before us

asking the question

who are you

what are you

?

ok, the masculine psyche is complex

and yet painfully simple at the same time

example; we see a beautiful hot girl

stunning face, amazing body/hair etc

then comes the familiar tsunami of arousal

lightning bolts forming into a congressional hearing

in our loins

only the bill is passed in a split second

our hunter, gatherer instincts kick in

and we seek immediate closure 

at all cost 

then - we see our daughters/mothers eyes in her

 and in a sudden flash and it all changes

we grow up.  how is that possible - every once in a while ...

we have a vision

something more important

than a delicious romp

in the flesh - perhaps 

it's an operating system in an antiquated technology

transforming it into a whole new discovery

allowing me to deliver this to you

just the way i want to

right here and now

sometimes, the unthinkable happens

we dissolve, surrender

beautiful actually

some men get it

most don't 

some create

some destroy

"hey baby - come here

i got big plans for you"

we men are fundamentally bipolar

in our gender rendering

granted some have learned

to seamlessly integrate our feminine natures

into our daily lives without the repercussions,

without the damaging homophobia

and all the ramifications

exposed in chaos

i'm still trying to figure it all out myself

it's really convoluted and yet

fun still

King Warrior Magician Lover

 

i see the masculine shadow system

daily in many way shapes/forms

and have learned to appreciate

all of them

all dimensions, all re-incarnations/refurbished restorations sold for 1/3 less

Daddy?  you still RULE dude!

on behalf of all men on the planet

just be patient - please

oK

I've had my "come to Jesus" moment here

I'm doing 2 whole hours a day in the gym now

and i haven't smoked crack in a solid month

I'm a whole new man

speaking of "solid"

have a look at what I got going on down here

(subtle wink)

some things just don't get any better

than this

"if you are the desert
i'll be the sea
if you ever hunger
hunger for me
whatever you ask for
that's what i'll be"