Thursday, 5 September 2013


look right through me

whistleblower ... a person who exposes misconduct, alleged dishonest or illegal activity occurring in an organization

There's a chill in the air.  A haunting silence that echos down the dark corridors of our institutions where the reverberant clanging of a metal door closes ... and a voice cries out.  

Where secrets and lies are contained in the shadows of it's detainees and imprisoned informants who live in fear - wondering, what's going to happen next?

Knowing full well, that whatever it is ... it's not going to be good.

w h i s t l e  b l o w e r

Karen Silkwood  

Played in a movie named for her by Meryl Streep in 1983. She died mysteriously in 1974 in the midst of a campaign to challenge Kerr-McGee about the safety of a nuclear facility.

it's a place where those posing a threat just vanish, or a holding cell where they now live because they've exposed something they shouldn't have.

because there was no choice but to act fast.

I'm a whistleblower.  It's not something I chose but it's something that I live with every day.  It's not something that I'm proud of but just is.   oK, I'm small-time but still relevant.  You see, it's all about seeing/witnessing something that we fundamentally abhor (makes us sick) but keep a "lid on" for a long, long time, in anxiety and enormous stress - needing to get it out - needing to tell someone about it.

It's a sanity thing for the rare few who don't turn away from a tragic event with that all too familiar "out of sight - out of mind" religious philosophy.  The few who come to terms with the fact that somebody has to DO something about this.
Most people exist in lies and deception but learn to live with it, because the ramifications are rampant and because fundamentally, most people don't care and just want to be left alone. 

Coleen Rowley  

In 2002, this FBI special agent alleged that the agency had failed to act on information provided by agents in Minnesota about one of the figures in the terrorist attacks of Sept. 11, 2001. She ran for Congress in 2006 but was not elected.

Being a whistleblower in Toronto Canada is relatively safe, with little to prove/expose, in comparison to those who have risked their lives for a cause - a "just" cause.  A disturbing trend that points to distant series of tremors mounting in a caustic crusade where those with the courage - stand alone, despite the odds ... a ripple that turns into a wave that turns into a tsunami - that get's contained out of necessity - for so-called "national security". 

Regardless, lives depend on it - getting the word out to those who become the "deer in the headlights" and just WON'T get out of the way.  Shrouded in secrecy and determined to self destruct - in time, needing to speak up before it's too late. Tick Tock.

Linda Tripp  

This former White House staff member was a key figure in the Monica Lewinsky scandal that led to an attempt to remove President Bill Clinton from office during his second term. 

There is one thing I've learned from all this and being in Canada allows me to write a short essay in relative safety, where those in other parts of the world can't. 

Most if not all whistleblowers have an affinity for a life-force bereft of masculine domination, in a unique feminine inquisition.   Some call it an intervention, and no one can do it like moms can, because all moms care - grandmothers, moms/wives and daughters too.

It's a "mans (mad) world" and those who really need to speak up are all too often, those who possess a maternal instinct and must protect mother earth (and mother nature for that matter - ok our children) from a man made mono-nuclear apocalypse.  Still, it's approaching on the horizon with a propensity for revenge and needing WMDs or yes, "weapons of mass destruction" in a gregariously insular "spun" story in the mainstream press in order to fulfill their pathetic prophecy - drenched in punitive positioning.

Edward Snowden  

American computer specialist who worked for NSA contractors and said that he was an employee of CIA and NSA before leaking details of several top-secret United States and British government mass surveillance programs to the press.

"We're in a giant car heading towards a brick wall and everyone's arguing over where they're going to sit."   David Suzuki

Have you ever noticed ... that male whistleblowers are never REAL men?  Have you ever noticed ... that whistleblowers are never homophobic??  no ... they're grounded in both genders and possess both perspectives.

It's that eccentric cop on a beat, the androgynous geek boy who likes computers ... it's the gender confused corporate casualty near the bottom of the food chain who sees things that others ignore, needing to tell people that this is toxic if you consume it.  

Shit!  Maybe it's a woman!  This water is unsafe to drink because the nearby factories are dumping waste into the environment; oh, and FYI ... politicians are protecting those who do that - FOR MONEY!  time to wake up kids!  We're everywhere and yet we are nowhere - invisible and yet shattered.

Erin Brockovich-Ellis  

the American legal clerk and environmental activist who, despite the lack of a formal law school education, or any legal education, was instrumental in constructing a case against the Pacific Gas and Electric Company (PG&E) of California in 1993

Right now, as you read this - there's a drunk husband slipping through the side door somewhere in a dark american suburb, wearing a feminine fragrance and that subtle yet noticable lipstick smear on his collar; acquired in that hidden (and yet meaningful) "bump and grind" at Sammy's bar and grill just an hour ago.   Ok, she was a little "hottee" who looked a bit like Miley Cyrus (same moves) - in exchange for a few drinks and a bump of blow in the men's washroom.  Ah, life is good.  I'm feeling satisfied.

Confronted by his worn wife who questions him and yet getting away with it again and again because that's in the plan baby ... the "getaway" plan.  There's always a contingency caper in yet another confrontation, sequestered in sequence.  World domination IS akin to a psycho-sexual routine, ritualized in a "catch and release" program.  operative word ... "catch".

"Alpha Delta Charlie 3 - evac confirmed - dive"

"Your evidence is paper thin - and you have no right to question me because you live under my roof and you answer to me - and you KNOW it". 


Frank Serpico  

This New York City police officer, later portrayed by Al Pacino in a 1973 movie, attempted to confront the rampant corruption within the police department. He left the force after being shot in the face during a botched drug raid and later moved out of the country.

And so the tides shift and the tremors fade because in the new world order, the cover-up mechanisms have been deployed in an operation that i call ... "band-aid on a brain tumor".

Sometimes whistleblowers actually make a difference, but for every one who actually does, there are dozens lost in the cracks of an imperialistic regime that is hellbent on holocaust before hanging.  It's like it's an affirmation ... "if I go down, I'm taking everyone with me" in a game of russian roulette meets "pin the tail on the donkey" and they don't care.  

They don't care about you!
Taking a stand against the forces of evil takes a toll on those who try to protect us from the ongoing tortuous tyranny torn by the psychopathic tricksters we elect into power - OR allow to be in a business that rips you OFF!  "Bend over - you're going to LIKE this!"  NO!  not liking this!   SOMEBODY - HELP ME!


Sherron Watkins  

An executive for the Enron Corp., she helped expose the seemingly formidable company in 2001 and 2002 as one constructed on enormous financial lies and frauds. Along with Coleen Rowley and WorldCom's Cynthia Cooper, she was one of three whistleblowers named Time magazine's Persons of the Year in 2002.

It's like ok ... if we're on our death beds and thinking ... "if i could go back and change something?  What would it be"  kind of thing.  What would I have done and how?

I'm not suggesting that you all get up right now and run to your window yell out - 'I'M AS MAD AS HELL, AND I'M NOT GOING TO TAKE THIS ANYMORE!'  like Howard Beale did in the TV mini-series "Network".

No way - that wouldn't benefit you at all because no one is listening - or are they, are you?   It's a question I keep asking myself and more and more I become more and more optimistic.  

Yes.  Someone is listening!


Bradley Manning  

The Army soldier was court-martialed at Fort Meade, Md., in the summer of 2013 for documents provided to WikiLeaks.  “I am sorry that my actions hurt people. I’m sorry that they hurt the United States,” he said at his sentencing hearing.

look right through me
look right through me

i'm irrelevant, or am I
i'm convinced, that those who now possess
an impotent sense of power
will subside - refresh?

but it's a stretch
optimism, is a good thing
it's like those who think
that this world can in fact, be
a better place to live in, eventually
facilitate the necessary changes
free of guilt, shame/blame and
free of corruption

wishful thinking

Julian Assange 

WikiLeaks founder currently in exile at the Ecuadorian Embassy in the U.K instrumental in exposing the tragedies and injustices of the U.S. government's lies and coverups in foreign policy and war crimes to the world.

This blog is dedicated to all those who took (or is taking) a stand.  Those who followed or are following their instincts and intuition despite the odds.   Not being able to sit idle and just watch the onslaught of spiritual autonomy absent of compassion and humility.  

This is for those who can "rise to the occasion" even in a torrential storm of ambiguity and false signals, threatening legal letters handed out like halloween candy on a late October evening in the mainstream media ... trick or treat - smell my feet.

oK ... just be a "good" citizen 
keep your mouth shut 
and follow the rules, 
and you'll be just fine.   

Trust me 

Jim Lamarche  

Writer and Blog activist forced to shut down his Media Arts Education in Canada blog which exposed ethical improprieties on the part of media arts schools in Canada


I think I'm in good company

I was never a big Star Wars fan 
but there is something quite profound 
that sticks around still ...

Good luck my friends 
and may "the force" be with you

w h i s t l e  b l o w e r

all around me are familiar faces
worn out places, worn out faces
bright and early for the daily races
going nowhere, going nowhere
their tears are filling up their glasses
no expression, no expression
hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
no tomorrow, no tomorrow
and I find it kind of funny, i find it kind of sad
the dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
i find it hard to tell you,
i find it hard to take
when people run in circles its a very, very
mad world

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