Saturday, 23 February 2019

ASTRAL

in the end
you end up accepting everything in your life 
suffering, horror, love, loss, hate - all of it

Harry Dean Stanton



A S T R A L
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a jim lamarche remix
from the album ONE LIFE
assembled in logic audio, photoshop and final cut


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FOR WHAT IT'S WORTH
the story behind astral

another message in a bottle
closing track on ONE LIFE now

stopped me in my tracks and paralysed for a moment
his hands on my shoulders ... gently turning me
"look there"

and it sounded a lot like
"go there" 

when I was putting the music for astral together
I imagined being able to teleport back in time
and snapping random pictures of disturbed people
shell-shocked, some sad, some just numb
some batshit crazy

those who feel that they

have nothing left 
to lose

pulling it all into 3 minutes

to show you what I saw
the music never resolves
in perpetuity

for a reason



for Tom Lodge




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Saturday, 16 February 2019

FAMILY FOTO

life is pleasant, death is peaceful 
it’s the transition that’s troublesome

Isaac Asimov




F A M I L Y  F O T O
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a jim lamarche remix
from the album ONE LIFE
assembled in logic audio, photoshop and final cut


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FOR WHAT IT'S WORTH
the story behind family foto



there'll be bluebirds over

the white cliffs of dover
tomorrow
when the world is free

it's a song my mom used to sing to me as a child
a lullaby to help me slip into surrender


it's a sound that tickles the limbic
then moves down, grazing the frontal lobe
then further down into my dark body
flickers of light, shapes ... landscapes
passing that place I abandoned
left to decay years ago 
familiar unsettling


seeing it all again
from a distance, then up close
realizing it's a dream, I roll over and fall back asleep
only it returns; this time in greater detail

memories of the family farm
in Eastwood Ontario
this time


for kenneth henry batho
(uncle ken)

1926-2012




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Friday, 8 February 2019

FIRESIDE

education is not the filling of a pail
but the lighting of a fire

william yeats




F I R E S I D E
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a jim lamarche remix
from the album ONE LIFE
assembled in logic audio, photoshop and final cut


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FOR WHAT IT'S WORTH
the story behind fireside

I keep having these dreams
that I'm burning

it is said, that a picture is worth a thousand words
so ya, I'm doing pictures now too
an attempt to realize it
as close as I can get it

yes, it was a dream I had
our house was burning down back when
mom and dad were still together, struggling
on a hot summer night in Woodstock Ontario
and mom came in to rescue us
charred and burnt
weeks in the hospital 
she succeeded
i'm alive 50 yrs 
later

being loaded into the ambulance
I just remember dad standing there at a distance
that smug look on his face on the edge of the street
standing beside a big red firetruck
smoking a du Maurier

I woke up and started this one
ending 2 days later - the story fleshed out
in a loose translation

same feeling tho
same shiver


for troy
my knight in shining armour



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Tuesday, 5 February 2019

THE SUICIDE COLLECTIVE




It’s a ‘what you don’t know won’t hurt you’ game plan
with a good dose of shame and blame 
in a recycled modus operandi
and all designed to
   
divide and conquer 










1986 (Windsor Ontario)

My Dad would have loved Trump.  Stoic, stubborn - ‘knows everything’ kinda guy w/a touch of torment, hatred of women and a penchant for payback.  Sound familiar?  The BIG man who wears an expensive suit, drives a BIG car and has a hot trophy wife (ok, you get it).  


I mean ok (story is), he got right royally fucked over and so now they need to suffer (yawn) … listening still.  It’s frikkin’ brutal.  Rambling about street blacks in Detroit getting what they deserve, (intoxicated at 2pm).  Long pause.  The silence is deafening.  "So Dad, just how is it that they deserve being dominated and oppressed"?  Even longer pause and that recurring look of death.  Yikes!  I'm in trouble now.  I learned everything about the term "bleeding heart liberal"  that day, and then there was no room for discussion (on anything anymore). 


I was 30 and hadn’t seen him in years and honestly?  He didn't have any help (desciphering reality from fantasy). Sad. You see here’s the deal … he feels the world owes HIM something because he was left behind - abandoned, when in fact he blew it and abandoned himself (emotionally/spiritually) long ago, and so it was inevitable.  We had grown apart and his will to live was being compromised.  In disrepair.  He didn’t care (never did), a hint of suicide in the air.  Perhaps even contemplating how much damage he can do first.  I remained distant. I had absolutely no idea what to do ... as lost as he was.  His resentment; my legacy.


My way or the highway.  The one thing I've learned is that 'forcing' change almost always backfires (counter-productive) and that all the money and military might in the world ultimately doesn't make one man (or any one people) any more powerful (or relevant) over another.  Ok maybe in the short term.  We’re here for an instant then gone anyway.  Whatever.  POOF, in a flash and up in smoke we go, six feet under - all over. Here today, gone tomorrow.  More-so now than ever ... compassion, common sense, the ability to reason and critical thinking have all been eclipsed by something much larger … entitlement.


I guess you didn't get the memo.  What’s real is no longer important because everything you see is fake news anyway, so fuck it.  IF we all get blown to smithereens?  At least I will have had the opportunity to make my point.  It's all about the collective.  It's about what's right.









That said, it’s really not that obvious especially to those who don’t want to know.  Right wing thinkers blame us ‘snowflakes’ for stirring up shit and blaming them only they invented the rules, especially in this latest round of debauchery, all reinvented and endorsed by celebrity apprentice, fame and fortune (ah, the American Dream) and all in that familiar adrenalin rush that comes after hearing the words … “you’re fired”.  


All the problems in the world? … always someone else’s fault.  It's magic. The term ‘zero accountability’ comes to mind.  

That said; it’s imperative that we all take a good long look in the mirror from time to time and ask ourselves the most important question … ‘so what’s my part in all of this anyway’? Otherwise we’re just sticking our head in the sand just like they are.  



"I believe in a vision of equality, justice, freedom and multi-racial democracy,
built on the premise that all people are created equal."

Barack Obama







Drain The Swamp - Hiding the Hypocrisy

Who knew that it could be so simple, so easy?  It's a slam-dunk.  It was originally about vowing/promising to take on the 'elite power structure' in Washington (ie. Wall Street, The Clintons/Corporate Lobbyists etc.).  Then it shifted to 'draining the swamp'; away from the power grid and towards removing/deporting those who supposedly threaten our livelihood/freedom (specifically immigrants) and no-one even flinched or questioned the switch.  Tax breaks for the rich (corporations) while gutting health care and essential social programs. A crime of the century con, flawlessly executed and all in plain sight.  

It's chasing brown people out the back door, while crusty old white guys slip through the front (in broad daylight) and clean the living room out.  It's about Kanye West visiting the Oval Office (dozens of reporters) and in an incoherent rant saying "when we make everything in China and not in America, we're cheating our country" while Trump listens, smiles and nods his head.  The Trump Collection (fashion suits, shirts, ties & accessories) are all made in China.  They know he's a sexual predator.  They know he lies.  They know his products are made in China and they know he colluded with the Russians. IT DOESN'T MATTER!  

Fundamentally we all just want to be heard so yeah, we have more in common then we would like to admit.  Some would prefer to look at it; others away from it.  That said, there’s a whole lot of reaction/resentment at the slightest hint of adversity/disagreement (a redundant rigidity if you will) and the rules of debate conveniently shift in favour of the righteous, where moving backwards makes way more sense than moving forward and 'collateral damage'?  Comes with the territory.  It's just easier to point and shoot first, then ask questions later.

And so, a new President (and most powerful man in the world) has turned the world into an episode of Jerry Springer; you know the one where 2 women tear each other to shreds while the crowd cheers on “Jerry, Jerry, Jerry” all laughing and loving the shit-show!  What’s important here is that I get what I need (and you don’t).  That’s what I mean by entitlement.  









Childish actually.  It's like the kid next door wanting to play with your toy (even though you're not) but you don't let him (because it's yours).  Snickering when extending your leg just enough to trip the class idiot walking by in the cafeteria, his lunch tray crashing to the floor. Hilarious.  It’s all about learning how to get away with shit without getting caught.


I’m troubled by all this and yet I’m optimistic.  History has taught me that greed and narcissism is (generally) short-lived and when it gets right down to push & shove vs. humility, humans deliver regardless of what side of the fence you’re on; looking at the big picture.  If someone else is in trouble, our first instinct is to help them regardless of the circumstances and that most of what’s going on is just an act, designed to attract attention.  This is what needs to be remembered first and foremost, what we have in common (what we share). 


That's what makes me not a Liberal or Conservative thinker, but a human being.









They say that 9/10 attempted suicides are just a cry for attention (cry for help) and maybe that’s what all this is about, only the 'powers that be' care even less now.  Cry for help until you're blue in the face - nothing is changing people.   One thing is certain.  Commoners are still being shafted by the elite/wealthy (the owners) in America only in all their blind faith (in voting for Donald Trump), they just jumped out of a frying pan and into the fire.



for G.J. (Jim) LaMarche - 1925-2002










THE SUICIDE COLLECTIVE


a jim lamarche remix
Gateway House Sessions/18
assembled in logic audio and final cut










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RUN


your mind is beautiful and wise
inside a masterful disguise 
like waiting for a time to find
a way to leave it all behind 



R U N








when all I want to do is run
when all that’s left is said and done
it's all I want to do



a jim lamarche remix
gateway house sessions/18
assembled in logic audio and final cut 


  read more of Jim's blog posts here 


LISTEN TO ONE LIFE  >>>  HERE 













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