Friday, 4 July 2014


change your heart - look around you

"the only language men ever speak perfectly
is the one they learn to speak in babyhood
when no one can teach them anything"

Maria Montessori

V i s i o n a r y

this story actually has a happy ending

everybody's gotta learn sometime
looking back on my life - i am perplexed still
i often wonder what it would have been like
if there had been no illusions

"just deal with it"

that's what my Dad told me in 1970 when i was 14
after telling me that the divorce was all her fault
and that he was really the 'victim' here

gee - thanks Dad

and so - is reaching puberty a blessing
or a curse


the onset of delusion begins
like it's ok for him to be unfaithful in the marriage
but not her - right

composed in the compost

talk talk - to the hand 

so totally in control

the formalization of partnerships
between and within genders even
so dated - yesterday's news 

you can't defeat me
and oh - by the way

ah right, ok
you weren't that good in bed

your ass is too fat
(and you have too much 'attitude')

chaos and confusion envelopes us early on
and we are filled with 'ideas' that throw us off course
ensconced in the world's belief systems
handed down first by our parents
then our teachers/schools 
employers and so on
and on we go

half a century later
having gravitated to the big city
because that's where we need to be
to be "in the loop"
a place where we can BE
someone special

today's special
flavour of the week
employee of the month
pushing forward because
that's what you're supposed
to do

waiting at that 'punishment' light
in your car - finally turning green
and at that very moment
the guy behind leaning on his horn
because you're taking too fucking long
to GO! 

it's no wonder why 
we need to 'medicate' 
in the jar


ah - all those precious memories

back to the days when young students - boys mostly
were strapped for misbehaving (boner, I mean bonus)
for their unwillingness to 
be compliant

peeing their pants whilst
adding to the event

i need your lovin' ... like the sunshine

in an abstract absence of empathy and humility
deliriously distracted denizens

 harassing those who are independent thinkers
for being unwilling to learn 
how to play the game

it is a simple message
play by the rules and you'll be rewarded
question them and you'll be punished
plain and simple
what follows

self esteem 
erosion corrosion

truth is

we learn to 'adapt' to our surroundings
at an early age - reprimanded for rebelling
when in fact challenging the system 
is what all great thinkers did/do
to this day

only all too often many (most) of us are convinced 
early on that what we ultimately want
is something not possible

fear is instilled, then 
the waiting game begins

waiting for something better to come along
and release us from the cage
only it never does

accepting our fate, our chosen destiny
chosen by others - quietly coming to terms
with the crappy hand of cards we've been dealt because

that's just what you do
go ahead, have your way with me

i surrender

change your heart - look around you

i'm in heaven - i mean
ok, maybe I'll get lucky some day
maybe God will come down and give me a lap-dance
but only if I stick to the plan
and never question
the truth 

creature comforts
in the pleasure dome
glued to our sacred sacrements
in HD on our soiled screens



there's a whole chapter of the bible
dedicated to it - vague yet revealing 

i'm thinking 
that there's something going on out there

something that most don't see
something that can change the world
making it better

just a hunch
after careful deliberation, a weight is lifted 
off my shackled shoulders 

ok, i have a theory
perhaps even worthy
of a new HBO series 

V i s i o n a r y

those who are true visionaries
are those who learned to trust their instincts/intuition
from the time they were young onwards
it's an alignment grounded in nature
and circumvents all the spam
we're force-fed from the get-go

no it's more about - no more bull-shit
let's just do this

  no more waiting

 and so it all comes back to good education/nurturing
i'm thinking that this is something that we can improve upon

most education institutions in north america are self-absorbed
near sighted and extremely frightened

that something may happen to upset the system
that they've relied on for safety and security
and so the status quo remains
participants in tyranny - open to new ideas - yes
but only in small doses and only if they're 'pre-approved' 
by those who hold the strings

 when we were kids, we played
as adults we work - all part of the master plan
only it's fragmented/disjointed
no longer in alignment

there is an extreme shortage
of creativity

V i s i o n a r y


as an artist/composer looking back
my favourite musical compositions were always
those created and conceived (and recorded) 
in a very short time-frame (minutes/hours)
it was like they just came 
out of nowhere 


the music that i toiled over for weeks even months (hell years)
forever tweaking the tiny bits in an endless quest for perfection
becoming useless junk

I am no visionary
but I do see this

we are alive - albeit momentarily

it's all in the 

visionaries are those who see light in the darkness and quickly harness it
instead of ignoring the signs and signals

embracing them

change your heart
it will astound you

if you care for your children
keep their environment uncluttered
free of useless gadgets and distractions
keep your conversation honest and straight-forward
free of control and manipulation
free of hidden agendas
free of fear

be genuine - be real

keep your decisions fair and generous
free of punishment and shame

and (most importantly) - free of blame

because fundamentally
we are all guilty 

of nothing

dedicated to Maria Montessori (1870-1952) 

Thursday, 3 July 2014

anti vaxxer

safe?  of course it's safe

is a barbarous practice
and is one of the most fatal
of all the delusions current in our time

conscientious objectors to vaccination
should stand alone if need be
against the whole world, in defense
of their conviction

mahatma gandhi

a n t i v a x x e r

the tobacco industry led the way 
for 50 years, cigarette manufacturers 
employed a stable of scientists 
willing to assert (sometimes under oath) 
that there was no 'conclusive' evidence 
that cigarettes cause lung cancer, 
or that nicotine is addictive and the masses bought it 

 hook, line and sinker
a marketing miracle

i am compelled to write about this
after recent events, most notably the new California law

which insists that all children going to public schools
be vaccinated, in compliance with a constructed system

where there is no room for debate
ensconced in an ongoing delivery system
that has been set up solely for the benefit of those
who profit from it

the pharmaceutical industry has trillions invested
in such a delivery system having done their battery of testing

only it's mostly superficial - for show

people are almost vehemently/violently polarized
in their views around it understandably
because there are so many mixed messages 

like should I assume a dominant
or submissive position?

we all had the measles as kids

it was part of the landscape growing up - spreading like wildfire
at school, having to stay home for a week
with red sores everywhere, the itching/burning
the cold sweats - tired/no energy
but couldn't sleep

it hurt and - it went away

why?  because our natural immune systems kick in
and most of the time saves us - and if it doesn't - we (god forbid) die
like we're supposed to ... it's a natural order

today (July 3rd, 2015)
I read about the first measles caused death in the U.S. - in 12 years
and so (obviously) now more than ever ...

"this peril is upon us and we need to DO something about it"
OK, tens of thousands die in countries like Africa each year
from various viral infections like the measles
billions spent on so-called rescue remedies
and pious precautions

a no-brainer

i mean, whatever
just give me what i need

i need a fakin fixx
a full-throttle NIN mixtape bungee jump
capped with lots of white powder
in me frikkin head - like right fakkin now


ok, what was that?  sorry

my question is a simple one ...
so why does corporate america all of a sudden, give a flying fuck
about people in Africa

like they care?  mmmn thinking - something not right here
the alignment - is out of whack
my hesitation/vexation started 
early on

i remember as a kid (1963), visiting my grandfather (heavy smoker)
in the hospital, having had a stroke
mom, dad, aunts and uncles
all standing around his bed
IN the hospital

smoking cigarettes
all OK - FDA approved
(ash-trays supplied by the hospital yet)

peering around backside - thinking - walls need paint
at 7 years old

grandpa died a month later
pulmonary embolism

just shut the fuck up
and have a smoke

super smooth
new and improved
trust me

* the figures quoted
have been checked and certified
by Lybrand, Ross Bros and Montgomery
Accountants and Auditors


"yepper son, one of these babies will fix ya right up"

the hypocrisy is staggering
and the ramifications are all encompassing

some people reading this will say no-no
"you can't even begin to compare the two"

same lies, made by the same people
and - for all the same reasons


so believe whatever you want to believe
but there is a bottom line here

we are pawns to the media who are in bed
with all the big corporations who control them
we believe what we're told - even defending the lies
all part of the plan

truth is - there's nothing in mainstream media
around what's really going on
in politics, economics or around the future health
of humankind - here in a flash
then gone

 no, this isn't about Jim Carrey's twitter rant last week
Jenny McCarthy, or vaccines causing autism 
 or ANY of this media/tabloid driven crap
no, this is about what is SO, 
 documented by the Editor In Chief of, Dr. Richard Horton
THE most internationally respected medical journal
  who basically spills the beans 
on what's really going on in the pharmaceutical industry
and with the vaccination facade

truth is, i actually believe
that modern medicine (even vaccinations) has it's place
and that a mindful implementation benefits us
only this - has gotten totally out of hand
there's a prescription for everything now
you name it - here we go
side-effects?  we got you covered
no worries

just make sure you have a good health plan at work
 because this (my friend) - is going to cost a fistful of dollars

a n t i v a x x e r

so keep reading the fiction (if you must), but
please read this (link bottom), if you want to know what's REAL
ok, if i was living in america right now
and i was told that my kid had to be vaccinated
in order to 'fit in' to society?

i'd be seriously considering moving to Finland

(maybe it's closer than i think)

Dr. Richard Horton