Saturday 29 August 2020

ISLANDS



low, down under
we are drifting to our destination




I S L A N D S
volume up


 










music by jim lamarche
© 1985 A&M/Universal Music, Toronto



assembled in photoshop, logic audio & final cut
featuring the Roland Jupiter 8



see the ONE LIFE album/page here >>>








1985 Spiral Studio, Toronto





see the new TWO LIVES album/page here >>>
http://www.jimlamarche.ca/twolives/


see the new THREE LIVES album/page here >>>


Sunday 19 July 2020

EXTREME MAKEOVER



resistance is futile - looking in the mirror 
that familiar knot in my gut every time I look at myself
Jesus, you’re gross dude  every morning, the same  
this time I’m going to do it 

today, I’m going to transform my life!  
I mean - you only live once right



E X T R E M E  M A K E O V E R
an inspirational guide to self discovery in the COVID era


sound up









every time I think of you
the rain falls from the sky



Time for the purge, getting out of my comfort zone.  Strapping on that parachute knowing it might not open but doing it anyway.  Stepping out onto the platform and just jumping off.  
No hesitation.  The feeling of weightlessness.  Now that's what I'm talkin’ bout.  What will they say?  Seeing me after it’s done?  The envy, jealousy … the sheer torture, knowing they could have done it first but no, it was me - I did it first.  

I’m feeling better about myself.  Thinking maybe I’m long overdue for a change … embracing this rare opportunity to take a stand and show the world that I have the stones to do this.  

Real courage - real conviction.  Why didn’t I see all this earlier?  
So simple.








Conformity is dangerous.  I’ve been telling myself this for years but no, I always buy the dark socks.  I’m an individual, not a robot.  I can’t be programmed to think a certain way anymore, because I’m free.  Yes, and that God given freedom means I can do anything I want.  

Take this pandemic for example … bullshit.  What we see/hear on the media?  Totally blown out of proportion. You can’t trust the news any more because it’s fake and I’m no longer subscribing to their stories.  How I choose to think?  They have no say in that anymore.  If I want to get on a bus or walk into a grocery store without a mask, that’s my right and if they don’t like it, they can take a long jump off a short pier!   Loving my new freedom.
  
It's like the smell of a new car with leather.

Feeling a renewed confidence brushing my teeth, combing my hair - that second look, right. Think I’ll lose the beard today … shave my face clean ya.  The beard is just baggage I’ve been carrying around for years.  My miniature rebellion where it counts most … on my face.  
Gotta go.  Maybe I’ll shower and get my nails done.  

Maybe I’ll buy a new shirt, shoes … a new deodorant, hell maybe even some spray tan and a 6 pack for later.  Do it up right. Living large;  I can do that. 










There’s a twinkle in my eye and a spark in my step as I put the water on for my morning coffee, thinking about what’s to come in the next several hours of my life.  

I’m proud of myself for finally taking this step, for becoming who I really am.  Rushing to my computer … gotta get this down - my catharsis is deluxe today and I’m poppin’.  Sitting and typing this torrential thunderstorm into Microsoft with the tenacity of a speedball.  The delivery exquisite - the intention crystal; my focus in macro.  I’m just a conduit, channeling my inner gift to the outside world, not giving one fuck if anyone reads it or not.
  
This one will change everything though - I can feel it.  

Sitting back, pondering my prose - OMG this is it!  This is the one that will blow the roof off!  It's words and music and pictures - everything.  Just a little of this and a bit of that … nip here, tuck there.  Oh wait, it doesn’t matter if they like it … right.  That’s ok.  
I’m doing this for ME - not them.  

It doesn’t matter what they think.  Got this.










Minutes turn into hours as my masterpiece unfolds … getting better and better.  Don’t think, just retrieve & release, in a free-flow stream of consciousness like a misty rain blanketing a northern Ontario lake in late summer.  In the zone - uninterrupted.  I’m on a roll and have to see this through right here and right now (days later).  Whatever it takes.  This may just be the best thing I’ve ever done and I’m inspired.   I’m omnipotent - brilliant.  

What a blast!  

The crowd stands and cheers as I walk towards the stage and the cameras follow my every move (watched by millions); stepping up and accepting my gold graciously, Naomi Watts tenderly kissing my cheek then stepping back and claps (with the audience), smiling at me like she wants my ass … holding up my trophy as the room rumbles.  The moment I’ve been waiting for all along!  A tear in my eye; a wave of acknowledgement to the world - this is it.

Flash ...

Damn.  I didn't shave.  Cat’s meowing - shit, need to feed the cat.  Where was I?  Right ...





E X T R E M E  M A K E O V E R





resistance is futile - looking in the mirror 
that familiar knot in my gut every time I look at myself

Jesus, you’re gross dude  every morning, the same  
this time I’m going to do it 


today, I’m going to transform my life!  
I mean - you only live once right



sound up





jimlamarche.ca







every time I smile at you
the rain falls from the sky










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courtesy of a 5 star swim
at Marie Curtis Park Beach, Toronto today
July 24, 2020


cold water heals



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Tuesday 14 July 2020

OUTCAST


you just wanted
to use me



O U T C A S T
volume up


 











a jim lamarche remix
from the album TWO LIVES



assembled in photoshop, logic audio & final cut
featuring the Roland System 8


visual: Hinder - All American Nightmare 
(c) 2010 Universal Republic Records 
a division of UMG Recordings, Inc.


see the ONE LIFE album/page here >>>














see the new TWO LIVES album/page here >>>
http://www.jimlamarche.ca/twolives/


see the new THREE LIVES album/page here >>>




with the right seeds ... anything can grow














Thursday 2 July 2020

GENERAL DESTINATION



physical pain, it's manageable
real pain is emotional pain
that is the kind of pain that lasts

theo raeken



GENERAL DESTINATION
volume up


 










only one reason
because it's fun
paints a new picture


a jim lamarche remix
from the album TWO LIVES

assembled in photoshop, logic audio & final cut
featuring the Roland System 8


Visual:  Teen Wolf

MGM Television, Viacom CBS 
Music Television (MTV)




see the ONE LIFE album/page here >>>
http://www.jimlamarche.ca/onelife/














see the new TWO LIVES album/page here >>>
http://www.jimlamarche.ca/twolives/


see the new THREE LIVES album/page here >>>



Tuesday 14 April 2020

STAND BY YOUR MAN



girls get a raw deal

 it's a mans world
"get over it"



S T A N D  B Y  Y O U R  M A N




  


that's what I told my daughter today
sitting at the bar eating brunch - while she works
at "Insomnia" on Bloor in Toronto - how appropriate
having slept little - she's a soldier
always tired - why?

through the hardware of a bustling crowd
all the modern devices on display
a mixture of truly cosmopolitan men and women
an all so perfect, multi-cultural blend 
obviously very awake and yet, all so pre-occupied
pretending to be normal
appropriate music at just the right volume
this food and drink - good - life is good

looking forward at her in between bites
softening for a moment
in between her ongoing recoil - driven by her craft
staying - on course
it hurts still

she's such a warrior princess
thinking - I was blessed
she's "rising to the occasion" nonetheless

it's a default position - in an ugly tangle
she's grieving the passing of a relationship
and a man who hurt her - her boyfriend of almost a year

that's what I told her - so called "fatherly advice"
shitty deal girl - get with the program

get over it
(from Dad's mouth to mine)









girls are poisoned coming in
at a young age - and I'm part of that

bombarded by weapons of mass construction
victims of our ancestral karma 
all so meticulously choreographed by men
seeds that are planted in misinformation - incubation - masturbation
into numbness - in a routine mission that fails - yet again
 abort - "next" ...

ok, there are always the fruits from a good harvest
and that simple sermon delivered by a good male soul
at Sunday mass - all in good faith 
but it's never enough

women are programmed to give and take
in a pre-meditated ritual
that deceives and destroys

the spirit is compromised and the water becomes contaminated
all part of gods plan?  I'm questioning that tonight

and so dear friends
welcome back to my mishap in the making
 an ongoing exercise in redemption
delivered with hope and optimism

and yet with caution



S T A N D  B Y  Y O U R  M A N






Bonnie and Clyde


it started early - from the banishment of Hildegard Von Bingen
from the church - for writing words
and making music - for speaking up 
to a lost and alone Anne Frank in Amsterdam during WW2
just wondering what is going on here?
the insanity that surrounds the world - what's this?

it surfaces in crimes of passion and broken promises
what happened Daddy?  why does this hurt so much?
why are you so mean?

get over it


self esteem erodes
deviant distractions are devised
in a concocted contingency contagion
bravely bred - in a silent science

returning to our secret place 
a counter-measure that we didn't want to exercise
but have to now ... out of necessity

it continues


the holocaust was just a beginning
in the feminine decomposition - the decay smells rotten - oh btw ...

"do you think i'm pretty?"
rate me on a scale from 1 - 10
on the internet


rate my face




Anne Frank in Amsterdam - 1942



hijabs in high heels - hot
i love Square One - shopping mall - Mississauga
high tension hypocrisy
on any given day

international ramifications
in a history of violence
enough said

ok, it's all about the presentation
it's not about who you are
no, it's not about what you bring to the table
it's not about your feelings, desires or your fears
it's not about your beliefs or your ambitions

none of that









no my dear ... it's all about your faith
in a modern masculine modality that you have invested in
 your destiny - the circus show
 that we are all so entertained by in the media
by the displacement of power, repression and perception
the pasteurized poison
served up clean
and "neat"

in our given - inherited hypocrisy 
embedded in our religion and our philosophy
just "shut - the fuck - up"


just get over it






 you are nothing

you are only worth something ...
if you become something - in my image
and only if you present yourself accordingly

there are rules in place
follow them my dear, and you will be rewarded
break the rules? - and you will be punished
that's how it works


bend over ... you're going to like this







Karla Homolka and Paul Bernardo



just do as I say and it will be ok
i know you want it - i know you want to be ah ... loved
so just  - do this

get the girl


"then after you're finished?  we need a hammer
and garbage bags - Home Depot - for the wreckage
you're part of this now"

just do as you're told

 and it will all be ok - trust me


girls are afraid - and so they should be!
of being cast aside by Daddy - yep - how it works
and Mommy who follows Daddy 
because she's told to

punishment hurts
none of us wants that - and yet, here we go again
it's just another night 
in relapse

get me off




Tori Stafford, Michael Rafferty and Terri-Lynn Mclintic


 
just lure her into the car
after school

I want her young - and pretty - 
na, you don't have it in you
to actually do this - to bring me what I want
you don't have the guts

so just do it - bring me what I want
or you don't get that special surprise that I promised you

this happened in my hometown - Woodstock
in 2009 - I lived there as a kid
clueless









Tori was raped and murdered
by a ruptured couple

for those who have little girls
just love them

tell them that they are special and that they are loved

hold them like they are our only hope
for a better world and a better future


for our girls


he doesn't love you - the same way
that you love him













S T A N D  B Y  Y O U R  M A N





"sometimes its hard to be a woman
giving all your love to just one man"






dedicated to Tori Stafford - 2001 - 2009
Woodstock Ontario